happiness starts here
I have been feeling a lot better lately. Getting a job has helped me a lot. I used to feel really bad about the fact that I didn't have a job, not only because I couldn't pay the bills but also because I felt like a failure. I didn't realize it until I didn't have a job how much of a purpose it gives to ones life to do something.
Now even though I have to wake up early and sometimes I get out of work a bit late and tired from working I feel happy. I feel glad that I'm tired because it's being tired from a hard honest day's work and I know that I will get a paycheck and it will be money that I earned on my own through hard work. That is a great feeling. It's a great feeling to be able to deposit that check and know that money is mine and I can go out or buy some clothes with it without feeling guilty or having to ask anyone for money.
I also made other changes. I stopped reading romance novels because they are not good for me. I also stopped chatting on line because I can't believe anyone on line. I felt like anyone I chatted with was some pervert that just wanted sex talk and nothing else. I don't want that. I want to meet a good guy that I can love and will love me and I won't find that with my nose in a book or with my face in the computer.
I also made a change in my wardrobe. I bought some new clothes because I want to start dressing more like an adult and even though I'm a chunky that doesn't mean that I have to dress shabby. I'm creating better outfits and wearing cool shoes and even heels because I'm more confident and I want to show that. I don't want to hide amymore from life which is what I think I was doing with those books and with unappealing clothes.
I am very proud of these new changes in my life and hope to keep improving.
Now even though I have to wake up early and sometimes I get out of work a bit late and tired from working I feel happy. I feel glad that I'm tired because it's being tired from a hard honest day's work and I know that I will get a paycheck and it will be money that I earned on my own through hard work. That is a great feeling. It's a great feeling to be able to deposit that check and know that money is mine and I can go out or buy some clothes with it without feeling guilty or having to ask anyone for money.
I also made other changes. I stopped reading romance novels because they are not good for me. I also stopped chatting on line because I can't believe anyone on line. I felt like anyone I chatted with was some pervert that just wanted sex talk and nothing else. I don't want that. I want to meet a good guy that I can love and will love me and I won't find that with my nose in a book or with my face in the computer.
I also made a change in my wardrobe. I bought some new clothes because I want to start dressing more like an adult and even though I'm a chunky that doesn't mean that I have to dress shabby. I'm creating better outfits and wearing cool shoes and even heels because I'm more confident and I want to show that. I don't want to hide amymore from life which is what I think I was doing with those books and with unappealing clothes.
I am very proud of these new changes in my life and hope to keep improving.