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So im at that point again, where everything changes. Wasnt i just here a year ago? and then again i feel like i have gone no where.
i woke up with that feeling, that kinda nausua feeling, that nervous feeling that streams through your veins, that feeling that you can only really describe as bad. and you have no clue how to get rid of it. i think i have this feeling sometimes when things are going well for me, when i should be jumping out of my skin, like on days that should be good, like on christmas morning.....but instead all you have is this feeling eating away at your gut. when you just wanna cry.....and scream and curl up into a ball, cause you thought it wouldn't come back, you hoped it had gone away for good.........but then it reminds you.....your unwell....
it must be all the stress of the thing i hate most but do in a constant, change. i am homeless and jobless as of august 1st. and my San Fran roomates just fell through. so im fucked. but hell im young and i have about 436 options right now its all about choices which i hate more then anything.
anyways, im going home for a few days come sunday. maybe ill get some clarity there.
i woke up with that feeling, that kinda nausua feeling, that nervous feeling that streams through your veins, that feeling that you can only really describe as bad. and you have no clue how to get rid of it. i think i have this feeling sometimes when things are going well for me, when i should be jumping out of my skin, like on days that should be good, like on christmas morning.....but instead all you have is this feeling eating away at your gut. when you just wanna cry.....and scream and curl up into a ball, cause you thought it wouldn't come back, you hoped it had gone away for good.........but then it reminds you.....your unwell....
it must be all the stress of the thing i hate most but do in a constant, change. i am homeless and jobless as of august 1st. and my San Fran roomates just fell through. so im fucked. but hell im young and i have about 436 options right now its all about choices which i hate more then anything.
anyways, im going home for a few days come sunday. maybe ill get some clarity there.