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STATS
» NAME: Felix Harrowgate
» FANDOM: The Doctrine of Labyrinths
» AGE: 28
» GENDER: Male
» ORIENTATION: molly Homosexual
» COLLAR: Something like this. Shannon’s lovely watch chain ♥
KINKS
» YES: Better to ask! This boy be crazy, yo.
» MAYBE: Ask!
» NO: Ask!
» PAIRING PREFERENCES: Felix/Mildmay, Felix/EVERYONE
» APPEARANCE:
Because Felix is Cabaline, and thus, a wizard of the Mirador, he has what all of them possess after swearing their oaths to Lord Stephen and the Virtu: horribly gaudy, colorful tattoos - crimson and azure, emerald and gold, gaudy, blazing like a fanfare of trumpets or a cavalcade of banners - from hand to elbow on both arms and ten rings, one for each finger--they are the length from knuckle to knuckle. He is relatively pale, fine-featured, and has very bright, red hair that is usually not so tameable. His eyes are skewed, one blue and the other yellow; he is partially blind in his right eye and does not like anyone to approach him on that side because of it. Also, his back is very badly scarred from his time as a kept-thief, but he does not allow anyone, even his lovers, to see it.
Fun fact: Felix’s sense of style is...hideous. His favorite coat happens to be an off-red color that clashes with his hair. But to him, it’s high fashion ~
» PERSONALITY:
»The Wizard
Upon initially encountering Felix, there are a few key characteristics that are difficult to ignore: he’s ruthlessly charming-- his execution of proper vowels and guiding conversation, where to give compliments and the like is flawless; he’s flirtatious--in addition to social interaction, he knows when and who to flatter (he does not discriminate either sex) and how to do so without coming off as overbearing or as an annoyance; he’s handsome-- his pale skin, red hair, and strange eyes (one blue, the other yellow) make him a visually appealing approach. However, beneath that general exterior is an entirely different person altogether.
Felix is terribly arrogant. His intelligence combined with the fact he is considered the strongest wizard in the Mirador does not dissuade him from often thinking - most times, to be accurate - that he is better than his peers. It is difficult for him to be humble, especially when he is wrong. If anything, it only makes him less agreeable than he originally started out being. [ In the moment he decided Mildmay must kill Vey Coruscant, Felix absolutely refuses to take the matter to Stephen Teverius, Lord Protector of the Mirador (similar to a king but not without checks and balances), which only strengthened the idea in his head that his decision was the only correct one to pursue. ] In addition to his arrogance, Felix can come off quite stubborn and highly opinionated; if he has something to say on a matter, he is not afraid or sensible enough to not speak his mind.
He also dislikes admitting he is wrong as equally as he hates apologizing for his actions - “I hate saying it.” Really, Felix does not like asking for forgiveness as much as he is wary of professing his love for someone, platonic or otherwise. [ It takes him a very long time to realize how much he cares for Mildmay as a brother, without ever confessing so. Even his actions never speak quite as loudly as his words could, though he does prove he is not entirely heartless by first denying Mildmay’s request to cast the obligation d’ame and go with him, instead, where there would be no need to perform such gross heresy. And it takes Felix even longer (through Gideon’s murder, Felix’s revenge and exile from Mélusine) to understand that what he feels for Gideon is actually love. ] Both these behaviors are a result of being a prostitute at a young age and Malkar’s love-slave/prisoner for several years. While some of his arrogance plays a role in this, part of it is a defence mechanism to protect himself from getting hurt.
Notably, Felix is an outstandingly good liar when it suits his purpose. From an omission of the truth to denying facts and blatantly creating false backgrounds, he does not see it as a matter of importance to share information with others if it doesn’t need to be. For example, the six years he lived in the Mirador was under the implication he came from a line of respected nobility rather than the Pharaohlight whore he actually is. Though Malkar originally created this fabrication, Felix made no objection to change it. Even after it was discovered, he tired to deny it until it was no longer possible. With lying comes great...manipulative skills? His charm and sometimes long-winded explanations make it easy for Felix to persuade others into seeing his side of things; most of the time, especially if it involves discussion of magic, it leaves his peers confused to the point he must go out to prove it [ much like when he was resetting the foundation of the Virtu upon returning to the Mirador ].
»Black Moods
Typically, there are always two sides to every coin, and Felix is no exception. However, the intensity that comes with these self-labeled “black moods” can be very dangerous. Usually, Felix is relatively collected, maintaining his suave appearance and ridiculous tendencies, but there are times when something darker surfaces--it can be triggered by trauma, remembering events in his life that are equally traumatic, or getting excessively angry. [ When his lover, Shannon, learned that he’d been a whore, and Felix had returned to Malkar is an example. The time when Mildmay and Felix arrived at Nera to lay the ghosts there, and Mildmay would not let him walk the maze to be with Joline, a childhood friend, being another. ]
These moods are characterized by severe violence--he has the intention to hurt and be hurt in return to achieve sexual satisfaction. After the truth of his past is revealed, Felix finds himself visiting the Arcane to procure a boy for that exact intention; [...]all at once, my howling rage burned itself out, so that I was left standing in an ashy bewilderment, unable to think, unable to move. When clarity returns, Felix is left feeling filthy, beslimed, and over all, disgusted with himself for even thinking to do such a thing because it reminds him of all those people who had done the same thing to him as a child/teenager. He sees no salvation in himself because of his extreme volatility and would damn himself if no god would take the time to do so. Essentially, during these bouts of destructive madness, Felix, with all of his own flaws, is no longer consciously aware of his actions. Not to the point it matters.
In addition to the violence (and being a danger to himself and others), Felix’s speech slips quite drastically. The years he spent with Malkar taught him how to speak “properly” rather than with the thickness and slang of those that live outside the Mirador in Mélusine. He reverts back to his original Simside accent, which is, surprisingly, often more non-translatable than Mildmay’s speech. This is usually a warning sign that he needs to calm himself before he becomes violent.
To be noted: Felix has an extreme fear of water from being repeatedly drowned by his Keeper at a young age, is quite fascinated by the idea of ghosts, labyrinths, and the general dead, had an addiction to the Arcane drug known as Phoenix, and sometimes experiences issues of control. Most often during sex, it is difficult for him to be actively submissive as it reminds him of the time when he was crazy and raped in St. Crellifer. (But that doesn’t mean he won’t try for “equality” as he does later on with Gideon.)
» BACKGROUND:
Of noble birth, Felix hails from a line of Caloxan people - easily distinguished by their pale skinned features and bright red hair. His mother, soon after the overthrow of the king, fled the country and thereon lived with a wealthy landowner until her death sometime later. Felix, incidentally, stayed with the landowner until he was about seventeen years old. Afterwards, he left and became a wizard of the Mirador.
This is but one story, however. And a lie.
In actuality, Felix, at the age of four, was sold to a thief-keeper by his mother, a residing prostitute in Mélusine. After a fire that destroyed much of the Lower City seven years later, his keeper died - a very cruel man who beat the children he owned into submission and often drowned them to instill fear. Felix, then, found himself a working member of the Shining Tiger, a brothel catering to tarquins [sadists] and those of a like nature.
Malkar Gennadion, a wizard neither associated with Cabaline practices or any other school, discovered Felix when he was fourteen and purchased him from the owner of the Shining Tiger. In the three years that Felix is under Malkar’s supervision, he is taught to use magic and the etiquette of the nobly born. He’s also forced to remain loyal through several means: sex, drugs [particularly one, phoenix], and psychological abuse in the form of a spell called the obligation de sang - a nonconsensual binding of the wizard and his/her victim where the victim is forced to carry out the wizard’s orders. This later plays a part in Felix’s unwilling breaking of the Virtu, essentially the foundation of the Mirador and its spells.
At twenty, Felix breaks away from Malkar, having been accepted into the Mirador as a wizard, and proceeds to occupy his time with the Curia, the governing body of the Cabalines, thaumaturgical research, and (however petty) social intrigues.
He lives this way for nearly six years, until the rumor of his being a Pharaohlight prostitute surfaces in the Mirador; rather than being of noble birth as he initially claimed to be. Incidentally, these events lead him back to Malkar, his past phoenix addiction, and the aforementioned shattering of the Virtu through complicated spellwork and Felix’s rape. In turn, it literally drives him mad.
Through repercussions [and Malkar having disappeared], Felix is stripped of his title and rank in the Curia and taken to St. Crellifer with the thought to cure him, as well as torture the truth out of him. As unsuccessful as it is.
During this bout of madness, lasting more than a year, he’s introduced to several key people in his life en route to reach the ghosts he is now able to see, both waking and in dreams - an insanity-induced result. Of these people, one is Mildmay Foxe, his brother he hadn’t known existed. With Mildmay’s help, Felix is both able to see the spirits at rest and is cured of his madness after traveling to a distant land where wizards, not bound by Cabaline law, help him.
Shortly after, and in his right mind, Felix returns to Mélusine and fixes the Virtu, once again becoming a wizard of the Mirador. However, he does not explain that Mildmay and he are bound by the obligation d’âme -much simliar to the obligation de sang, only consensual- until the last possible moment, leaving them no choice but to reinstate his wizard status. As per his brother’s request to save his life. To the Curia, such spells cast on people are heresy, and those who perform them are burnt at the stake.
As a last effort on Malkar's part [ who is actually known as Brinvillier Strych, though also goes by the alias Beaumont Livy ], he sends a letter to Felix via Vey Coruscant to further blackmail him into fighting her. Vey Coruscant, a bloodwitch, is actually Strych's last known pupil. However, since a wizard's deul is petty heresy (rather than gross heresy, like the obligation d'ame), he ultimately decides to send Mildmay to kill her; he enforces the obligation d'ame since Mildmay refuses. Way to grow a conscience, Felix.
Mildmay succeeds in murdering Vey, but is taken prisoner by Malkar/Strych in the process. Through meeting with Mildmay's former Keeper, Kolkhis, Felix and co. manage to find their way into the Bastion, the place where Mildmay is being held. One Wizard Showdown later, Felix defeats Malkar/Strych and everyone returns to Mélusine relatively intact-minus the memories of Mildmay's imprisonment by Malkar. Felix and Mildmay eventually reconcile, and all is well. For now.
Note: This only covers Mélusine and The Virtu; it does not cover The Mirador or Corambis.
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