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I can't blame you if you already have enough of the troubles I caused you. I understand your feelings, and I am sorry for making you feel that way. I also respect whatever your decisions will be in that matter.
2 years ago, I witnessed how you managed to stand up even the people around you are jerks and bullshits. And because of that I admired you, and I started dreaming of becoming your friend. There come a time that I felt you dnt like me, I still forced myself on you.
That's why I gave you kumo no yuri's. That's the first time you hugged me, I was shocked I didn't know you're doing silly stuffs like that too.
Anyway I am just saying this to let you know why I wanted you to become my friend. And because of that, I don't want to hurt you anymore.
There is one thing I need to confess to you before we go in different paths.
I consulted a friend when I saw your wallpost. And that I said to him, "My definition of having a best friend is way too selfish." Akala ko pwedeng ako lang ng ako, hindi pala pwede yun. May sarili ka nga rin palang buhay. I've only realized it now. Sorry for abusing your kindness.
Then my friend told me, "pwede naman yun e. kung talagang close kayo." It is clear to me that this is not the right answer to my questions. Sorry Friend! But in someway, he has a point.
Dear, I just realized that I cannot drink even just a can of beer with you. You'll hate that. What else would've happen if I asked you to drink tequila with me. I cannot do that to you. You haven't heard the story of my exes. There is a lot of things I haven't told you because I am too afraid that you will never look at me the way you looked at me before. My point is we both don't know each other yet.
I think being a bestfriend is quite a hard job. Remember you asked me why I don't want a boyfriend? This. This is a very good example of the reason why I don't want a boyfriend. I don't know how to handle relationships. I am too irresponsible and immature when it comes to these things. Sorry. But I hope we can still be friends someday. :D
P.S:
Dear, I am one of the things you don't deserve.
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2 years ago, I witnessed how you managed to stand up even the people around you are jerks and bullshits. And because of that I admired you, and I started dreaming of becoming your friend. There come a time that I felt you dnt like me, I still forced myself on you.
That's why I gave you kumo no yuri's. That's the first time you hugged me, I was shocked I didn't know you're doing silly stuffs like that too.
Anyway I am just saying this to let you know why I wanted you to become my friend. And because of that, I don't want to hurt you anymore.
There is one thing I need to confess to you before we go in different paths.
I consulted a friend when I saw your wallpost. And that I said to him, "My definition of having a best friend is way too selfish." Akala ko pwedeng ako lang ng ako, hindi pala pwede yun. May sarili ka nga rin palang buhay. I've only realized it now. Sorry for abusing your kindness.
Then my friend told me, "pwede naman yun e. kung talagang close kayo." It is clear to me that this is not the right answer to my questions. Sorry Friend! But in someway, he has a point.
Dear, I just realized that I cannot drink even just a can of beer with you. You'll hate that. What else would've happen if I asked you to drink tequila with me. I cannot do that to you. You haven't heard the story of my exes. There is a lot of things I haven't told you because I am too afraid that you will never look at me the way you looked at me before. My point is we both don't know each other yet.
I think being a bestfriend is quite a hard job. Remember you asked me why I don't want a boyfriend? This. This is a very good example of the reason why I don't want a boyfriend. I don't know how to handle relationships. I am too irresponsible and immature when it comes to these things. Sorry. But I hope we can still be friends someday. :D
P.S:
Dear, I am one of the things you don't deserve.
This entry was originally posted at http://wingardium-mauricia.dreamwidth.org/19742.html. Please comment there using OpenID.