Thank you and Sayonara My Friend...
Today, i lost a beautiful person that has been a part of my life for the past 5 years. It hasn't fully sinked in yet... i find it kinda surreal... not to mention that i'm oceans away, and grieving all by myself, which kinda makes it sadder... moments like these, i do wish that i'm back home with my friends and loved ones...
Since i heard the news from Che, my thoughts have all been of our times together. Harry Potter and our love for Anime brought us together. And i remember how i've argued that Harry and Ginny would be the one getting together! Not HArry and Hermione! H/Hr shipper kasi sya eh. hehehee... i remember how gleeful i was when the sixth book came out and when we were watching the 5th film together and all those H/G moments were there.
I never did get to say goodbye properly. The last time i talked to her was last july when i went home. We watched Harry Potter 5 together... and we were still suppose to watch them together until the seventh film... but i guess that won't be happening now.. and watching the upcoming HArry Potter mvoies would never be the same again... we always watch them together....
Gemma... she's a woman that's full of zest for life. And if it wasn't for her disease... she could have lived out her dreams. And she wanted to live them out... that's why it's kinda hard right now... we were still suppose to go to my grandma's beachhouse when i go for vaction next year. I asked her to get better so that she can come with us... the beach and the sun would do her good... and she even assured us that's she's feeling better as compared to before... that's why i can't really fully grip the fact that she's gone...
She was only 21... i know that they say that "the good die young" and i'm trying to reconcile with the fact that she's already in peace... but remembering the times when Gemma talks of all her "what might have been's" i can't help but think that He took her away to soon... but then who am I to question His ways, we can only accept it... and gradually we will, i will...
Gemma, I'm gonna miss you badly. And to quote what sempai told you before, "No matter where you are... everyone is always connected.." And our memories together would keep you alive for all of us Bakeros,. I thank God that I He gave you to me as my friend in this lifetime... Thank you Gemma...I love you my friend and I miss you already.
This is the last song that Gemma told me she's been hooked to.
"Mikazuki" by Ayaka
Romaji Lyrics
Zutto issho ni ita futari de aruita ipponmichi
Futatsu ni wakarete betsubetsu no hou aruiteku
Samishisa de afureta kono mune kakaete
Ima ni mo nakidashisou na sora miagete
Anata wo omotta ah ah...
Kimi ga inai yoru datte
So no more cry mou nakanai yo
Ganbatte iru kara ne tte tsuyoku naru kara ne tte oh
Kimi mo mite iru darouKono kiesou na mikadzuki
Tsunagatte iru kara ne tte ai shiteru kara ne tte oh
Hiekitta te wo hitori de atatameru hibi
Kimi no nukumori koishikute koishikute
Dore dake denwa de suki to iwareta tte
Kimi ni orikakaru koto wa dekinai
Namida wo nugutte... Ah ah...
Kimi ga inai yoru datte
So no more cry mou nakanai yo
Ganbatte iru kara ne tte tsuyoku naru kara ne tte
Kondo itsu aerun darou sore made no denchi wa
Dakishimenagara itta anata no ai shiteru no hitokoto
Kimi ga inai yoru datte
So no more cry mou nakanai yo
Ganbatte iru kara ne tte tsuyoku naru kara ne tte oh
Kimi mo mite iru darou Kono kiesou na mikadzuki
Tsunagatte iru kara ne tte ai shiteru kara ne tte oh
Mikadzuki ni te wo nobashita kimi ni todoke kono omoi
English Translation
The one road we always walked together
Splits in two and we go our separate ways
Clutching at my chest, overwhelmed with loneliness
Looking up at the sky still about to cryI thought of you...
On these nights when you're not here
So no more cry, I won’t cry anymore“I'm trying my best”, “I'm getting stronger”
You're looking at it too
The crescent moon that's about to disappear“
We're connected”, “I love you”
These days when I warm my freezing hands alone
I miss, I miss your warmth
No matter how often we said "I love you" on the phone
I can’t lean on you
I wiped away my tears…
On these nights when you're not here
Yeah, no more cry, I won’t cry anymore
“I'm trying my best”, “I'm getting stronger”
When will we meet again?
Hanging onto the battery of our time up to nowI said one thing: “I love you”
On these nights when you're not here
So no more cry, I won’t cry anymore
“I'm trying my best”, “I'm getting stronger”
You're looking at it too
The crescent moon that's about to disappear
“We're connected”, “I love you”
I reached out my hand