Do-Re-Mi-me-Fa...
Wow, this has been a KER-azy weekend. My head is still whirling from the enormous tornado of feelings that has cropped up inside my heart. I started this entry thinking I knew what I was going to say, but instead, I don't. I started this weekend off feeling hurt and abused and ended feeling very peaceful.
I feel stable and confused at the same time. Like being in the confusion of my heart is stable and that I want that. In one instance at least. I want to feel this happiness that wells up inside of me, but a part of me refuses to accept it. Whether it's because I've never felt that feeling before or whether I'm just denying a fact of myself that I'm afraid of facing. I can't decide and for some reason that feels alright with me.
I feel stable and confused at the same time. Like being in the confusion of my heart is stable and that I want that. In one instance at least. I want to feel this happiness that wells up inside of me, but a part of me refuses to accept it. Whether it's because I've never felt that feeling before or whether I'm just denying a fact of myself that I'm afraid of facing. I can't decide and for some reason that feels alright with me.