finally an update.
fun night, lemme tell ya. twofers at ruby tuesday makes for some good laughs. went with b, marty, and richie, it was good times.
so what's new. looking for a new job. something that involves a desk and no uniform. as of right now i'm sending my resume to my mom's company because they need a new receptionist/secretary and there's an opening for a purchasing manager at shedd aquarium. i'm not sure i'm ready to make the investment into a move to chicago, but things are going so well with scott right now that i do anticipate moving there someday in the future. if i were to move there now i'm afraid it might jinx things.
speaking of, we just made it through three months. everyday i fall even more in love with him and can't wait to see what our future together holds. however, i think sometimes i look too far into the future and i don't want that to ruin things, or scare him. we've both told eachother we can see spending the rest of our lives together, and support eachother's goals, so that's a start, but it's just way too soon. one step at a time i have to keep telling myself. you know they say don't love the one you can live with, love the one you can't live without, and i don't think i could live without him.
as for work, where i started, it's just getting out of hand. i had a panic attack two weeks ago where my heart was beating very fast and i couldn't control it. went to the doctor and was told i need to slow it down, but i just can't say no. instead i bottle it all up and cry in the bathroom when i can't take it. i just hate how since i'm the only original one of the management team everyone comes to me because they don't like the other managers. i can't handle all the pressure of that and on top of it taking crap from the other managers as well. it puts me in a lousy position, the middle. i can't stand it. i'm realizing maybe i'm not retail manager material. and i'm realizing it fast.
school's going well. have to get a tutor for stats because it's getting hard. i'm gonna apply for financial aid to see if i have a shot of maybe getting into the organization and human resources program in the b-school. it would mean back to full-time student status, but that's what i want. i'd get done faster and have the degree, which is the goal. so we'll see. wash u is gonna be about $35,000 for day school tuition next year so i have to plan something since my funding runs out in december.
spring break is next week. working a few days and then i'm going up to chicago to see scott. i love going up to see him, and this will be a fun trip because i finally get to see downtown chicago. his family is wonderful too, so that makes it even better. yup, should be fun.
okay, time for some quality time with the pillow. night all
so what's new. looking for a new job. something that involves a desk and no uniform. as of right now i'm sending my resume to my mom's company because they need a new receptionist/secretary and there's an opening for a purchasing manager at shedd aquarium. i'm not sure i'm ready to make the investment into a move to chicago, but things are going so well with scott right now that i do anticipate moving there someday in the future. if i were to move there now i'm afraid it might jinx things.
speaking of, we just made it through three months. everyday i fall even more in love with him and can't wait to see what our future together holds. however, i think sometimes i look too far into the future and i don't want that to ruin things, or scare him. we've both told eachother we can see spending the rest of our lives together, and support eachother's goals, so that's a start, but it's just way too soon. one step at a time i have to keep telling myself. you know they say don't love the one you can live with, love the one you can't live without, and i don't think i could live without him.
as for work, where i started, it's just getting out of hand. i had a panic attack two weeks ago where my heart was beating very fast and i couldn't control it. went to the doctor and was told i need to slow it down, but i just can't say no. instead i bottle it all up and cry in the bathroom when i can't take it. i just hate how since i'm the only original one of the management team everyone comes to me because they don't like the other managers. i can't handle all the pressure of that and on top of it taking crap from the other managers as well. it puts me in a lousy position, the middle. i can't stand it. i'm realizing maybe i'm not retail manager material. and i'm realizing it fast.
school's going well. have to get a tutor for stats because it's getting hard. i'm gonna apply for financial aid to see if i have a shot of maybe getting into the organization and human resources program in the b-school. it would mean back to full-time student status, but that's what i want. i'd get done faster and have the degree, which is the goal. so we'll see. wash u is gonna be about $35,000 for day school tuition next year so i have to plan something since my funding runs out in december.
spring break is next week. working a few days and then i'm going up to chicago to see scott. i love going up to see him, and this will be a fun trip because i finally get to see downtown chicago. his family is wonderful too, so that makes it even better. yup, should be fun.
okay, time for some quality time with the pillow. night all