Starting
Well, this is the first time I've ever written anything on the World-Wide-Web, really. Decided to get some writing as I've never done it my whole life, to really express myself in the form of writing. I, myself regard this as a tombstone, a monument, to at least make my mark in this world, where I myself feel very insignificant. Where I can express my true feelings, where I can escape from life, where I can create a new world just for myself.
Well, for the sake of it, I better introduce myself first. My name is Luqman, that has been my name since I was a new-born child. But as I grew on, I've been called with various names, such as, Luq, Mang, Luqerk and many other nicknames. But my favourite nickname of all, is PAPA, which all my matriculation friends call me. Seriously, sometimes I think that name really suits me, with my mannerism and style, sometimes when I walk with my friends, I always think that people will see me as the father! I had been a very shy child, since I was little. I am really timid, not talking to others before others people talk to me first. I am kinda bullied in primary school, as I don't retaliate, but this is reflected into my life at home, where I suddenly become a hot-blooded, high-tempered mean-machine. Enough of that, I've been rambling about things that are not that important I guess.
Next off, one of my favourite pastimes is to think, think on the values of the world, the crime, the unscrupulous world, where people think of only theirself, and never others. I've seen many people in my 21 year journey, and while most of them keep a good facade, it is always in my mind that each and every human on this world has their own negative thoughts, hidden deep inside his or her mind. I have never believed a person, even my closest of friends, all because of this. Though there are various other things that I always ponder, especially about life, and also about death. I am really interested on knowing the unknown, a really deep sense of curiosity.
Thinking has always make me feel stressed, and that is really the role of this journal, to really vent my feelings towards something that does not involve people that know me(though I revealed my name), it is an achievement for me to express my feelings into something other than myself. Well then, till next time!
Well, for the sake of it, I better introduce myself first. My name is Luqman, that has been my name since I was a new-born child. But as I grew on, I've been called with various names, such as, Luq, Mang, Luqerk and many other nicknames. But my favourite nickname of all, is PAPA, which all my matriculation friends call me. Seriously, sometimes I think that name really suits me, with my mannerism and style, sometimes when I walk with my friends, I always think that people will see me as the father! I had been a very shy child, since I was little. I am really timid, not talking to others before others people talk to me first. I am kinda bullied in primary school, as I don't retaliate, but this is reflected into my life at home, where I suddenly become a hot-blooded, high-tempered mean-machine. Enough of that, I've been rambling about things that are not that important I guess.
Next off, one of my favourite pastimes is to think, think on the values of the world, the crime, the unscrupulous world, where people think of only theirself, and never others. I've seen many people in my 21 year journey, and while most of them keep a good facade, it is always in my mind that each and every human on this world has their own negative thoughts, hidden deep inside his or her mind. I have never believed a person, even my closest of friends, all because of this. Though there are various other things that I always ponder, especially about life, and also about death. I am really interested on knowing the unknown, a really deep sense of curiosity.
Thinking has always make me feel stressed, and that is really the role of this journal, to really vent my feelings towards something that does not involve people that know me(though I revealed my name), it is an achievement for me to express my feelings into something other than myself. Well then, till next time!