Prework thoughts
Such is the inconsistency of real love, that it is always awake to suspicion, however unreasonable; always requiring new assurances from the object of its interest.
Ann Radcliffe, The Mysteries of Udolpho, 1764
Damn you quotations thingy, so I'm trying to be more open with my feelings these days. Its weird and well uncomfortable to be honest, I'm so used to being private and dealing with my own problems. Then again I don't always deal with them the right way, the scars account for that. I still think to much, over analyse everything to death and try and plan for every possibility but that’s my nature. I was always taught to be prepared for anything, thus I've been able to deal with 90% of the shit thrown my way. So issues be damned I'm not letting you get in the way of my happiness, I don't have a god to pray too I have my own strength of will and if that fails stubbornness will drive me through. Its always has before.
I am worried about my two special ladies though, both of them seem to need a lot of hugs and attention right now and I want to give it. But the bloody ocean and expensive flights are not fun, guess I will be here for them when they need me. They are very awesome and special to me, so my built in urge to protect and look after is driving me nuts. So if I go a bit crazy you now know why, well to work I guess and earn that money.
Oh and I need more hugs in my life, I miss human contact. I'm more affectionate than I let on.
Ann Radcliffe, The Mysteries of Udolpho, 1764
Damn you quotations thingy, so I'm trying to be more open with my feelings these days. Its weird and well uncomfortable to be honest, I'm so used to being private and dealing with my own problems. Then again I don't always deal with them the right way, the scars account for that. I still think to much, over analyse everything to death and try and plan for every possibility but that’s my nature. I was always taught to be prepared for anything, thus I've been able to deal with 90% of the shit thrown my way. So issues be damned I'm not letting you get in the way of my happiness, I don't have a god to pray too I have my own strength of will and if that fails stubbornness will drive me through. Its always has before.
I am worried about my two special ladies though, both of them seem to need a lot of hugs and attention right now and I want to give it. But the bloody ocean and expensive flights are not fun, guess I will be here for them when they need me. They are very awesome and special to me, so my built in urge to protect and look after is driving me nuts. So if I go a bit crazy you now know why, well to work I guess and earn that money.
Oh and I need more hugs in my life, I miss human contact. I'm more affectionate than I let on.