Scholarships
I hate scholarship-searching. I don't have financial aid at the moment because my GPA sucks and I don't play sports and my ACT score wasn't high enough for BrightFlight. And because I'm sort of lazy.
So I go off and get a Fastweb account and fill out a huge-ass-long bio that will supposedly give me matches. Bit of a flaw in that: I'm not an Indonesian Catholic. I'm not an Asian Engineer. I haven't got anything about overcoming adversity.
All I've got is me. Middle-class, white American. Journalism major. Never been out of the country (there goes that globetrotting scholarship). I have a mum, a dad, a brother, and a sister, and always have. And they're biological. And they like me.
Hell, I was THIS CLOSE to attempting to convince my parents that they aren't giving me any emotional support over being bisexual so I could apply for some scholarship, before realising I wouldn't be eligible anyway-- it's a vocational-type thing, and I'm going to a four-year. That same organisation had another one that would have been perfect... except I'm not a lesbian.
Pretty much every single one was "oh this would be great... but I'm not quite eligible". I might have been able to claim some sort of problem with my mental health, because I do have some problem, except the eight or so specialists I've seen over the years haven't been able to agree with a diagnosis so I've got "some-combination-of-ADD-anxiety-bipolarity-Aspergers" and nothing official.
I'm considering entering an "overcoming adversity" one by claiming I want to win this to overcome the adversity of being so normal that everyone overlooks me.
So there's me, and I'm entirely uninteresting, and I don't give a shit about the future or politics or the environment. I don't want to go off and read a book and write an essay so that maybe I'll win $200. I have zero leadership skills. I'm not all that good academically. My athletic ability amounts to a black belt in tae-kwon-do, and I'm not even very good at that.
What I need is a scholarship for Boring People Who Won't Get Money Anywhere Else Because Nobody Seems To Notice Them. Except there isn't one.
I'll keep looking, then.
So I go off and get a Fastweb account and fill out a huge-ass-long bio that will supposedly give me matches. Bit of a flaw in that: I'm not an Indonesian Catholic. I'm not an Asian Engineer. I haven't got anything about overcoming adversity.
All I've got is me. Middle-class, white American. Journalism major. Never been out of the country (there goes that globetrotting scholarship). I have a mum, a dad, a brother, and a sister, and always have. And they're biological. And they like me.
Hell, I was THIS CLOSE to attempting to convince my parents that they aren't giving me any emotional support over being bisexual so I could apply for some scholarship, before realising I wouldn't be eligible anyway-- it's a vocational-type thing, and I'm going to a four-year. That same organisation had another one that would have been perfect... except I'm not a lesbian.
Pretty much every single one was "oh this would be great... but I'm not quite eligible". I might have been able to claim some sort of problem with my mental health, because I do have some problem, except the eight or so specialists I've seen over the years haven't been able to agree with a diagnosis so I've got "some-combination-of-ADD-anxiety-bipolarity-Aspergers" and nothing official.
I'm considering entering an "overcoming adversity" one by claiming I want to win this to overcome the adversity of being so normal that everyone overlooks me.
So there's me, and I'm entirely uninteresting, and I don't give a shit about the future or politics or the environment. I don't want to go off and read a book and write an essay so that maybe I'll win $200. I have zero leadership skills. I'm not all that good academically. My athletic ability amounts to a black belt in tae-kwon-do, and I'm not even very good at that.
What I need is a scholarship for Boring People Who Won't Get Money Anywhere Else Because Nobody Seems To Notice Them. Except there isn't one.
I'll keep looking, then.