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So much time spent whittling away at the hours that remain of my life. Plato says virtue is fulfilling the value that only you can be; the function that only you uniquely may serve. I wonder how much doing this work now will help me; I wonder if I truly am supposed to strive to save the world. Will it break me, own me? And yet can the world afford another person sitting back and letting things remain the same? I think not. Everyday too I fight my own battle in the world of morality and justice and virtue, I question what I know and what I feel. I struggle with no one to guide me but I know in the end I must be my own guide, and I often turn to the light I know will never leave me as long as I awnt to look for it.
I am my guide.
Colin went to Colorado on Sunday morning to look at colleges. I miss him, as a friend, no more.
Homecoming day I went to Betsey Johnson with my mother and bought a pretty flowing black dress and orange and black shoes at "Macy's" (aka the Bon). I straightened my hair - which took me 1.5 hours! and waited for Colint o pick me up at around 6:40. He loved my dress and my and Mommy and Dt's makeshift corsage, and we drove to Ty's house (where I stood on a chair and taped up a smoke detector) and then to pictures. Pictures were decent, saw some people and was awkward around some others, and took a group photo (Colin and I sat in the front because we ran in late).
Then, went to dinner. I ran to the white limo! shivering in the cold, one out of three limos. In the limo Gabe and Colin were loud, and we drank champagne. I got a bit tipsy- happy, but felt awkward around Colin for some reason.. which only got worse throughout the night.
We didn't get into the dance because they were breathalizing people. Damn po.
Went straight to Ty's afterparty and everyone got drunk within half an hour. Ty's dad was super tight, didn't care that we were drinkinga nd picked up beer cans like the entire night. He said he really likes Colin, too.
People kept asking me where Colin was and I kept telling them
Talked to tom stowell for aw hile for like the first time in my life. He's very nice... kindof wanted to say hi to him at school today but I didn't see him anywhere. Too bad.
Did see Nick though. I talked to him at lunch, and during Int. Studies (he did his presentation, too). It's reeealy awkward when I talk about Colin.... but oh well.
Yesterday hung out with Lisa and Peter adn Jon after school at Jon's house, which was fun. Lisa stated to me that I talk alot? the only weird thing.
I'm tired of homewrok
I am my guide.
Colin went to Colorado on Sunday morning to look at colleges. I miss him, as a friend, no more.
Homecoming day I went to Betsey Johnson with my mother and bought a pretty flowing black dress and orange and black shoes at "Macy's" (aka the Bon). I straightened my hair - which took me 1.5 hours! and waited for Colint o pick me up at around 6:40. He loved my dress and my and Mommy and Dt's makeshift corsage, and we drove to Ty's house (where I stood on a chair and taped up a smoke detector) and then to pictures. Pictures were decent, saw some people and was awkward around some others, and took a group photo (Colin and I sat in the front because we ran in late).
Then, went to dinner. I ran to the white limo! shivering in the cold, one out of three limos. In the limo Gabe and Colin were loud, and we drank champagne. I got a bit tipsy- happy, but felt awkward around Colin for some reason.. which only got worse throughout the night.
We didn't get into the dance because they were breathalizing people. Damn po.
Went straight to Ty's afterparty and everyone got drunk within half an hour. Ty's dad was super tight, didn't care that we were drinkinga nd picked up beer cans like the entire night. He said he really likes Colin, too.
People kept asking me where Colin was and I kept telling them
Talked to tom stowell for aw hile for like the first time in my life. He's very nice... kindof wanted to say hi to him at school today but I didn't see him anywhere. Too bad.
Did see Nick though. I talked to him at lunch, and during Int. Studies (he did his presentation, too). It's reeealy awkward when I talk about Colin.... but oh well.
Yesterday hung out with Lisa and Peter adn Jon after school at Jon's house, which was fun. Lisa stated to me that I talk alot? the only weird thing.
I'm tired of homewrok