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Man, i've been so down on life recently...
every little thing bugs me. every little thing makes me jealous of others. This apartment actually kinda sucks. It doesn't feel like home.. at all.
That's one feeling i think i'll never have again...a feeling of being at home. i haven't felt it in years...
crying never really solves anything. it just makes me all sniffly like, and even more depressed...
"I predicted i was going to die in 24 hours. I almost did and it disapointed me."
honestly, i think i've hit a dead point in my life. i don't want to be here anymore. there doesn't seem to be that much left to it. the years just add on, and i don't want to be around to see them. it's way too long for me. all that's really left is college, marriage, and kids. and do i want to bring more fuckers like me into the world? There is no purpose for me. If there was, maybe more people would respect me, and have a desire to be near me. I want to see whats after this, and oddly enough... I'm not afraid.
every little thing bugs me. every little thing makes me jealous of others. This apartment actually kinda sucks. It doesn't feel like home.. at all.
That's one feeling i think i'll never have again...a feeling of being at home. i haven't felt it in years...
crying never really solves anything. it just makes me all sniffly like, and even more depressed...
"I predicted i was going to die in 24 hours. I almost did and it disapointed me."
honestly, i think i've hit a dead point in my life. i don't want to be here anymore. there doesn't seem to be that much left to it. the years just add on, and i don't want to be around to see them. it's way too long for me. all that's really left is college, marriage, and kids. and do i want to bring more fuckers like me into the world? There is no purpose for me. If there was, maybe more people would respect me, and have a desire to be near me. I want to see whats after this, and oddly enough... I'm not afraid.