Jan 16, 2005 03:52
I'm seriously lacking in the department of physical contact. it sucks. shit just pisses me off more than pleasing me. shit as in everything. computers, video games, work. it's lame. i've lost all motivation at this point. i feel like drawing, but i don't have the motivation. life just sucks for me. it's been like this for too long, to the point where i don't feel like theres anything i can do for it. i secretly hope for something to happen, but apparently i have to do all the work myself. i tried that way once. it didn't work. so i gave up. especially since i tried to for too long and came out to no avail. that's the worst part of it.
school seems like the right choice right now. but i don't have the money, or anything towards it. i just want to leave and go somewhere but here. that's why it's so important for me to go to japan this summer, or anywhere else i can. there's too much i want/need right now.
i don't care who the girl is, i just need my dick sucked. or atleast i think that's what i need.