Snow in my hair
I think having an epiphany in your life can inadvertently be like drunk dialing. Drunk dialing, for the brain dead, is when you have a little too much to drink and you call all of your contacts in your cell phone. You let them know exactly what you are feeling (good!) and how that affects them (I love you!). It is the most obnoxious trait about most (i was gonna say sorority) girls and gay dudes.
I used to be THE drunk dialer. I used to thoroughly embarass myself, I think. who knows? blackouts are a bitch.
My point is I'm sober and in a weird new place and I am feeling really nice and now I am calling everyone again. Me, the dude that hates the phone. I am up all hours calling EVERYbody. It's sad. I even tried to get back together (for dinner, boating, or maybe a quickie) with my ex that got away. I even made plans. It was a lapse in judgment. i just thought the new me might want to get together with the old him, just for fuck's sake. In communicating with him i realized that he was still the same, maybe a little worse for wear. i may be a little worse for wear but i recognize that and I want to make a change. I am trying to make that change. Silly, maybe.
It's weird with Kevin and Claudia split and me going through something right now. I am just confused. Truth is I wouldn't trade Peter for anything. I am starting to think that is pretty awesome.
I used to be THE drunk dialer. I used to thoroughly embarass myself, I think. who knows? blackouts are a bitch.
My point is I'm sober and in a weird new place and I am feeling really nice and now I am calling everyone again. Me, the dude that hates the phone. I am up all hours calling EVERYbody. It's sad. I even tried to get back together (for dinner, boating, or maybe a quickie) with my ex that got away. I even made plans. It was a lapse in judgment. i just thought the new me might want to get together with the old him, just for fuck's sake. In communicating with him i realized that he was still the same, maybe a little worse for wear. i may be a little worse for wear but i recognize that and I want to make a change. I am trying to make that change. Silly, maybe.
It's weird with Kevin and Claudia split and me going through something right now. I am just confused. Truth is I wouldn't trade Peter for anything. I am starting to think that is pretty awesome.