A wing and a prayer
Yah I'm up late. Lot on the ol' mind.
Went to that orientation tonight. Fantastic. Felt like a life revisited. Young. Fresh. Hip. New Magazine in the works. Interesting. Looking for hip scribes. Everyone hired is fantastic looking. Young. Youthful. Fresh. Smart. Amazing. Is that me? Why was I there? The uncoolest person in the room. Overwhelming.
Great opportunity. However, this requires of me a complete revamp in my schedule. It would utterly and completely cut out one hundred percent both Peter and my family. I feel like I would completely miss Hailey growing up. I would completely miss Peter. He will meet some dude off the internet one night at 2 am and abandon me. Everything I have worked so hard for will cease to exist.
On the other hand, I will make skads more money that I do now. I will be able to pay off that old college loan to the US Dept. of Education. That check every month is getting tired.
I will be making mad connections at this new mag (title undecided launching in March) is completely sponsored for and paid for by KTU (New York's Hit Music Station - or something). Major Buzz.
Sorry to write in fragments. It's how it all feels right now. I can't perform simple sentences. I am in shock so much of it all. I never expected to be completely balled over. I was in one of four orientation sessions with twelve people. Each session will have twelve people and they expect to cut twelve people. Right now I am part of like this major conglomerate. Thirty-six people on staff? Wow. What an upstart. What an Honor (Forgive the melodrama! to be invited. INVITED!! EEK!)
On paper it looks amazing. It comes with so much sacrifice. I don't know what to do. Jesus, Lord, I pray give me wisdom to make the right decision for me and my family.
Went to that orientation tonight. Fantastic. Felt like a life revisited. Young. Fresh. Hip. New Magazine in the works. Interesting. Looking for hip scribes. Everyone hired is fantastic looking. Young. Youthful. Fresh. Smart. Amazing. Is that me? Why was I there? The uncoolest person in the room. Overwhelming.
Great opportunity. However, this requires of me a complete revamp in my schedule. It would utterly and completely cut out one hundred percent both Peter and my family. I feel like I would completely miss Hailey growing up. I would completely miss Peter. He will meet some dude off the internet one night at 2 am and abandon me. Everything I have worked so hard for will cease to exist.
On the other hand, I will make skads more money that I do now. I will be able to pay off that old college loan to the US Dept. of Education. That check every month is getting tired.
I will be making mad connections at this new mag (title undecided launching in March) is completely sponsored for and paid for by KTU (New York's Hit Music Station - or something). Major Buzz.
Sorry to write in fragments. It's how it all feels right now. I can't perform simple sentences. I am in shock so much of it all. I never expected to be completely balled over. I was in one of four orientation sessions with twelve people. Each session will have twelve people and they expect to cut twelve people. Right now I am part of like this major conglomerate. Thirty-six people on staff? Wow. What an upstart. What an Honor (Forgive the melodrama! to be invited. INVITED!! EEK!)
On paper it looks amazing. It comes with so much sacrifice. I don't know what to do. Jesus, Lord, I pray give me wisdom to make the right decision for me and my family.