Feb 06, 2005 20:31
I've been in an apartment with no job, no classes and the company of one person for too long. My dreams take me to the ocean, in past's crevices, anywhere but here. My life is slipping between my fingers, hours added to days to months, but I smile more too. I'm standing in water knee deep, feeling it rush, away from, and toward me. My eyes can only see a few months in the future and for the first time in my life I don't have all the pieces but still fit bumps into valleys. It's the feeling you get before you meet someone who will change your life forever. You feel direction-less, lost even, but never scared. Something inside you knows that if you just hold out for a little longer... things will work out, they have to?! My life will find its course after the hopelss veneer of doubt fades to complete abandon. Once I have surrendered myself to life, only then will she scoop me up in her arms and open the doors I never even saw.
Job: A new development in the life of someone who wants out. A busy day sees six customers on their too short lunch breaks. Glazy eyed girl, cashier, server, busser, soup spooner, wonders where her pay check comes from, fills in squares and circles on newsprint and remembers to keep knees slightly bent. Aroma therapy? Absolutely Marvelous!
The Special Of The Week: Nothing new with a side of carrot-cinnamon juice. Who would have thought?
One More Step To Oblivion: Take vitamins once a day, feed cat once a day, Grocery store more like twice a day (imagine a grocery store that eats time?) Pick which shoes to wear once a day...
Once a day