Right now, my life feels like it's revolving around in a circle and going nowhere..
Every break from school I get, I come home and work at a job that has seen me get bent over for 4 1/2 years with really no reward and sometimes even getting a simple "thank you" is almost too much to ask. For example, yesterday I agreed to come in, ON MY DAY OFF, to help out for a visit that was today. I felt like I was in Office Space because I was asked 4 times to come in, by 3 different people. Initially thinking I was going to be in there from 6 to 11, I came in a half hour later than I agreed to, mostly cause I was pissed off about hearing about it multiple times (and dinner wasn't ready either), and then ended up staying until 4:15 am, with my next shift starting 7 hours later.. I did have a relatively good time with it though cause there were no customers and GB and I were able to let out our delirious comments that left one of our managers with a completely different impression of us. But just as I thought I might, I had a horrible day today. I was back at customer service dealing with everyone's problems.. ALONE for a total of 3 1/2 hours. To make things even worse, the woman who was supposed to relieve me came in over an hour late, and when 7 rolled around and she still wasn't there (which was as long as I agreed to stay), trying to get out of there was like telling a Kohl's shopper the word "no". I love most of the people in that building, but there are a small few that make it so bad that you can't help but getting pissed off past the point you normally would.
I'm sure I've said it before, but I hate being single. I think that after this past semester, I feel like I'm damaged goods. And there's no real reason to be that way. Nothing happened, but I held on for a month and a half hoping things would change. In that regard, I just need someone new - someone not in my life right now, someone that none of my friends know so that I can bust out of this round-a-bout pattern my life seems to be shaping up. I think that's what makes what happened this spring so difficult to swallow. That was EXACTLY what I needed. It was the right time, it was the right place.. but only for me. Yeah, maybe I should have listened to all of you when you said that she was too young, but I'm hoping I at least took something out of the experience.
I think I need a bar night this week, where I can just be a pervert and gawk at all of the good looking women in the place lol.
Tomorrow I'm back at work, doing a supervisor's job (for the mother), that oh btw they let me do, but don't pay me for.
I'm sure I've said it before, but I hate being single. I think that after this past semester, I feel like I'm damaged goods. And there's no real reason to be that way. Nothing happened, but I held on for a month and a half hoping things would change. In that regard, I just need someone new - someone not in my life right now, someone that none of my friends know so that I can bust out of this round-a-bout pattern my life seems to be shaping up. I think that's what makes what happened this spring so difficult to swallow. That was EXACTLY what I needed. It was the right time, it was the right place.. but only for me. Yeah, maybe I should have listened to all of you when you said that she was too young, but I'm hoping I at least took something out of the experience.
I think I need a bar night this week, where I can just be a pervert and gawk at all of the good looking women in the place lol.
Tomorrow I'm back at work, doing a supervisor's job (for the mother), that oh btw they let me do, but don't pay me for.