101212 0214 - reposted from blogspot
I think I care too deeply. My heart is too big for my own good. My conscience is too strong. I am too compassionate.
Because it just hurts too easily. Caring too much. Loving too strongly.
Longing too deeply.
It's painful.
It's painful to always put up a facade of strength, of confidence.
All I feel is utter loneliness. Utter helplessness. And much self-loathing.
Neither smart, nor cunning.
Neither pretty nor attractive.
And such regrets.
So much painful regrets.
Not even 25 and already exhausted with life.
I am tired of falling into troubled sleep from emotional exhaustion.
Tired of depression.
Tired of crying.
Tired of loneliness.
Screaming for someone to hear me. For someone to love me.
For god sake, send someone my way.
Because I'm tired of dealing with things on my own.
I'm tired.