Feb 23, 2008 03:40
Fuck it. I will not be weak. I will not conform. I will not, under any circumstances, do what other people tell me to just because they think they know what's best for me. No one, not ANYONE, knows me better than I do, and to Hell with what mainstream society may think of me.
I like tattoos. Pieces of metal in my body. I consider scars to be a thing of beauty. Say whatever you will about my mental state, about the desensitization I get from such things. I DO NOT CARE.
Don't try and figure me out, don't read into what I do, ANY OF YOU, because you really need only ask. I'm simple. I like red meat, and I like loud, epic music, and a healthy amount of violence sets my blood on fire. I like to feel useful, that what I'm doing matters, that I have affected people's lives in a positive way.
I am sick of living out the expectations of other people, and putting aside my own dreams. So quit expecting me to fit into whatever little Hellish cage you've made for me. I WILL NOT BE CHAINED. Don't lecture me, don't be dissapointed, and don't ever, ever judge me.
My name means "God is my judge", so don't any of you fuckers try to do it yourselves. You haven't earned the right.
Call me stubborn, call me immature, call me what you will. I know who I am. Deal with it, or get the fuck out of the way.
I am not about to change.