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What do you do when you realize that you aren't the person you thought you were or the person you want to be? What do you do when you begin to realize that maybe you will never be either of those people? How can you resign yourself to being someone sub-par? I don't know the answers to these questions but I feel like I should figure them out. That is where I feel I am at right now. I feel like a callous, uncaring, selfish, inconsiderate person. I never wanted to be any of those things and most of the time I don't think of myself like that. I'm not sure if I am having a moment of clarity now or if this is a lapse in judgment. I'm not really expecting anyone to answer and tell me one way or the other because no one can really answer that question. Everyone's perceptions of who I am will be biased. Man, I am just beating myself up lately but no one else beats me up like this and I deserve it. I need to be shown my flaws (however numerous) because otherwise I will be blind to them.