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It has been a while since I last updated. Well, a while for me anyway. I don't really feel like explaining what has been going on in my life because no one really cares too much about the small details and those who do should ask about them. The thing I want to mention here is my new faith in God. Since the middle of February when I realized what had happened to me I have been praying. Back then I prayed for strength and courage. I didn't believe I could handle what had happened and everything that came along with it but I did. I can't say I did it alone because I was never alone. Even when I was in my house by myself during Spring Break, I had a companion. God never left me because God does not leave those who need him. Once I was past the worst of what I had to endure, I still continued to pray. I no longer prayed for strength or for courage. I prayed for those who needed protection and those who needed God's help. Later this week I plan on purchasing a Bible. I have a small New Testament here in my dorm room (we got them around Easter) and I have been reading parts of it when I needed help or guidance. I have decided that I want to read the Bible, despite the asshole who once told me the Bible was too difficult for me and who said I could borrow his illustrated children's Bible. (<-- I bet the majority of you could guess who I am referring to) Even if it takes me years, I want to have read the Bible cover to cover by the time I die. I also want to look into getting Baptized. I was never Baptized as a child and I want to be. It will take me some time, I need to figure out which sect of Christianity I want to be baptized in. I think I would like to be baptized out here in Syracuse. My parents wouldn't care to attend since neither are religious so I might as well have it out here. I am sorry that I had to fill up your friends page with some religious babble but I needed to release my feelings. There are times where I get sad and I get lonely. I used to just sit there feeling that way but now I turn to God. It probably sounds so fake to all of you but I don't care. I love God.