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The party was a lot of fun last. I think the reason I had so much fun was because I didn't expect anything good or fun to happen so then I just went out and made my own fun. The dancing was fun but it was definitely more enjoyable when it was just the gals and occasionally Afab and his sister's boyfriend. The guys just ruined the atmosphere because they wouldn't just let loose. I guess boyfriends are only good for somethings and having a great time being silly doesn't appear to be one of them. I can understand why people enjoy being single. Being with your friends is just so much fun because you don't have to worry about how stupid you look because they are right there looking stupid with you. The worst part of relationships is that most people, me included, has this picture perfect relationship that nothing and no one can live up to. I really should get rid of that ideal but I can't. I always think that one day my boyfriend, whoever he may be at that time, will suddenly realize that what I want in a relationship is someone I trust, someone who knows how to make me laugh and how to amuse me, and someone who will realize that my boredom leads to my depression and thus will try to keep me from being bored. The last part of that I might have finally shaken last night. I went to the party with the idea in my head that I wasn't going to hand out with my boyfriend so when I barely talked to him all night, mostly because I prevented myself from settling down, I wasn't disappointed. I had a great time with my friends and I even had a rather pleasant conversation with a friend of mine that I rarely have a conversation with. The night went well and the only slightly bad part came at the end when I was getting tired and grumpy and the majority of my friends had left so I had no one to act silly with. I didn't really get depressed though and I managed to keep my spirits up till I got home and then I went to bed instead of going online and starting an argument. All in all, I am very glad I went to the party and I have a bright outlook for future parties now.