I had a converstation the other day about growing up.
About how you start out all emotional and angsty and write poetry and music... then after a while when you realise life isn't tragic, it is just life, it all dies down.
Then, after you are stable and comfortable, suddenly all the "life" you saw washes away and you realise just how awesome the world is. And everything comes back, the poetry, the music, the love... but it is different. It isn't delusional any more, because now you know and have conquered the world, and it isn't music of emotion, it is just music for the sake of music. It is god talking.
This song/poem reminded me of that conversation.
It also makes me want to point out that love is a chemical addiction. That you can't fix a person, but you can fix "people", and that the easiest way to deal with life is drown it with something else like lonliness or love.
A friend of mine just ended a 5 year realtionship. She wanted to drown it out with booze, anger, and sex... one of the few times in my life I knew just what to say... "Going through the bad things with a clear head is how they never happen again."
Having been so escapist for many years and finally pulling out of it, I can't be more sure of it.
/kinda random
Also, If you ever get a chance to visit, I'd be happy to have you and any things/people you drag along (as long as they are civil). It would be neat to see how much we've changed. I'll also fill you with tastey food and fun stuff...wait... something went wrong. I won't fill you with fun stuff. Well, maybe. Like a pinata!
*Gets small mexican children to whack you with sticks*
About how you start out all emotional and angsty and write poetry and music... then after a while when you realise life isn't tragic, it is just life, it all dies down.
Then, after you are stable and comfortable, suddenly all the "life" you saw washes away and you realise just how awesome the world is. And everything comes back, the poetry, the music, the love... but it is different. It isn't delusional any more, because now you know and have conquered the world, and it isn't music of emotion, it is just music for the sake of music. It is god talking.
This song/poem reminded me of that conversation.
It also makes me want to point out that love is a chemical addiction. That you can't fix a person, but you can fix "people", and that the easiest way to deal with life is drown it with something else like lonliness or love.
A friend of mine just ended a 5 year realtionship. She wanted to drown it out with booze, anger, and sex... one of the few times in my life I knew just what to say... "Going through the bad things with a clear head is how they never happen again."
Having been so escapist for many years and finally pulling out of it, I can't be more sure of it.
/kinda random
Also, If you ever get a chance to visit, I'd be happy to have you and any things/people you drag along (as long as they are civil). It would be neat to see how much we've changed. I'll also fill you with tastey food and fun stuff...wait... something went wrong. I won't fill you with fun stuff. Well, maybe. Like a pinata!
*Gets small mexican children to whack you with sticks*
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