Re: This is about that "i want to die" entrydaeinleyofJune 9 2009, 13:14:25 UTC
Every comment of yours makes me smile, so don't think I'm a dick please for putting lol or haha... Anyway... I, oddly enough, listen to a LOT of screamo and metal. I just have those times where I feel like a pig who has to wallow in his own shit... excuse the language. I feel more like I deserve to be punished. I mean, I already think about her a lot, might as well push the envelope and put myself through more... pain. Wow, I am sounding emo. I do like 'T' actually, and it isn't like I'm always feeling horrible when I'm with her, it's just... when I'm alone I feel as though I'm using her for some sick punishment and including her in my own pathetic game. Without her I'd probably be dead by now. I'm one of those guys who isn't emotionally revealing, but they do exist and are they ever alive and thriving. Okay, I can't just NOT think about 'A' and think about 'T' though. 'A' was my everything and my true love I think. I believe that I fucked up my own true love and it is irreversible. That's why I have confused feelings on 'T'........- that really sucks about that one guy. How did he watch your pain eat away at you? Were you still with him? Oh well, it doesn't really matter now... Oh I'll add this last part in because I just thought of it: What I hate the most is that I am a great therapist and I can generally remedy anybody's pain, but I can't even lessen my own my a degree... Anyway, thanks for the comment again! I'll be sure to leave [nicer] posts soon, maybe some updates if you want.
Re: This is about that "i want to die" entryxfrozenangelJune 14 2009, 00:55:06 UTC
NO I was never with that guy. I was kinda sluty last year and he promised we'd go out so I wouldnt feel like a slut...TOO LATE. I dont know how he watched my pain eat away at me...he's a bitch thats why. lol exuse MY lanuage. I feel the same way about the whole therapist thing... Yea I would love updates. Thnx.
Re: This is about that "i want to die" entrydaeinleyofJune 14 2009, 06:22:48 UTC
Haha, you actually want to hear me whine some more? That's odd... That really sucks by the way, I hate guys who think only of sex. Yeah, it's a big part in a relationship... Key term... relationship. Sokay, everyone has slutty moments.
I dont have those moment anymore bcause im sooooooooo tired of being the school slut... And anyways, there are girls that are waaaaaaaaay more slutty than i've ever been....
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