Ugh...I'm Fucking Disgusting...
So I'm in a really bad mood today and it all started this morning when I found out that both WSC and EL only had 2 hour delays. I think WSC has it out for the commuters and wants all of us to die. So I went to two classes today, booked it home, and went to work. Oh, and I got an 83 on my Child Development test...not so good, but I'll have to deal with it. I feel like such a dumbass in all of my classes, except English, this semester. I really don't know ANYTHING. Math is ridiculous, and so is History and Schools in American Culture...I don't know how the hell I am going to pull off good grades this semester. I'm getting really fucking stressed out and really fucking pissed off and fed up with professors who are getting paid all this money and don't fucking teach and do their jobs....AGH!
Anyways, I got home from work and ate dinner and then I realized how DISGUSTED I am with myself lately...adding to my bad mood. I was doing really well for a while and then it all came crashing down and I feel like complete shit again. I'm just going to stop eating...that sounds like my only option right now...but I know I can't do that. I'm not drinking anything besides WATER...and not eating anything besides my 3 meals a day...if I even eat that.
And I don't wanna hear "Melissa, you're not fat," because it's a load of crap and it doesn't help.
I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to Spring Break right now, even though I will be working, and doing work for school the whole time. I just need to get away from school and everything that is stressing me out. I can't stand people lately...
I can't wait to see all my friends over break, and go out and have a good time...I need it more than ever right now.