Power
I draw the energy, the inspiration, the drive to create from emotions. If I don't feel any strong emotions, I can't write. It doesn't matter if the emotion is positive or negative, but it needs to be strong, I need to feel it in my very gut, and it must flow through me like some sort of electrical power.
It's typically negative energy that truly inspires me to create, and therefore, no strong thing can happen to me that does not have positive effects. If I lose a friend of mine due to foolishness on my part, it still gives me the benefit of that... little boost I need to create. Creating is what I do. It is what I have chosen to do. My life's work is at my fingertips.
You know what? Maybe I should get out more. Have my heart broken a few times...
One problem with that though, I have this unshakable indifference that makes me throw off all but the worst of scenarios. Makes all that going out seem almost wasteful.
Not that I mind going out, I just simply don't have the opportunity to do it often at all. I have no friends where I live, and I live pretty much alone and secluded, just like my family does. Parties and social gatherings we simply do not have, but I don't really know why.
In any case... I suspect I shall be writing up and well again very soon.
It's typically negative energy that truly inspires me to create, and therefore, no strong thing can happen to me that does not have positive effects. If I lose a friend of mine due to foolishness on my part, it still gives me the benefit of that... little boost I need to create. Creating is what I do. It is what I have chosen to do. My life's work is at my fingertips.
You know what? Maybe I should get out more. Have my heart broken a few times...
One problem with that though, I have this unshakable indifference that makes me throw off all but the worst of scenarios. Makes all that going out seem almost wasteful.
Not that I mind going out, I just simply don't have the opportunity to do it often at all. I have no friends where I live, and I live pretty much alone and secluded, just like my family does. Parties and social gatherings we simply do not have, but I don't really know why.
In any case... I suspect I shall be writing up and well again very soon.