THE Phone Call
I've been waiting and wanting some word from M. Yesterday it came. Stilted and a bit uncomfortable. He said his purpose was to get back in touch and tell me he and D got engaged and will be wed on Good Friday. And he invited Dunk & I to attend.
So, why do I feel so funky? Probably I need to process everything internally. I know I am not feeling "out of the woods " yet. I haven't seen M or D or the Grandkids so I am a little bit skeptical. When I came to work this morning I was happy to receive some validation from my friend Judy. Everybody (Dunk,B,S) are obviously puzzled by my reaction. But since I wore a path to Judy's desk, to unload all my concerns, daily for almost 3 years, she seemed to understand I would have conflicting feelings.
I don't have an issue about the marriage. If I've learned anything in the last 7 months, it is that everyone has only the control over their own decisions. My control over me is to let go.... live and love. That's truly what I want.
That's why I don't really understand this reaction of mine. Weird, right?
Something to fill my lenten prayers.
So, why do I feel so funky? Probably I need to process everything internally. I know I am not feeling "out of the woods " yet. I haven't seen M or D or the Grandkids so I am a little bit skeptical. When I came to work this morning I was happy to receive some validation from my friend Judy. Everybody (Dunk,B,S) are obviously puzzled by my reaction. But since I wore a path to Judy's desk, to unload all my concerns, daily for almost 3 years, she seemed to understand I would have conflicting feelings.
I don't have an issue about the marriage. If I've learned anything in the last 7 months, it is that everyone has only the control over their own decisions. My control over me is to let go.... live and love. That's truly what I want.
That's why I don't really understand this reaction of mine. Weird, right?
Something to fill my lenten prayers.