True love...
I remember now when Robert and I were dating...I mean, we still are but now it is exclusive. I am talking about the period when we were both dating multiple people, just getting a feel for the waters. He was so eager to make it exclusive, to stop seeing other people and make it just he and I but I was very hesitant. I liked him enough, that wasn't the issue...it was more, I wanted to be sure. After jake and I broke up I promised myself I wouldnt become exclusive with anyone unless I was sure...
Obviously, Rob and I eventually decided to become a couple. And even to this day, more than a year later, that honeymoon phase which usually is out of my system by the 2nd or 3rd month is still in effect. That childish butterfly feeling still overwhelms me, but in such a different way than before.
I feel like the girl who cried wolf, as I sincerely thought Jacob was the one for me. For three years, I thought this...and now, I am so certain that he never was the one for me. Although Jake taught me great life lessons and he and I are still good friends today, I just cannot imagine a life with him. That's why we ultimately broke up. Sure there were the fights and stuff, but ultimately, I couldn't see myself with him for the rest of my life...I didnt see a point in dating someone I was certain that I wasnt going to marry...
Anyways, back to the point that I am deperately trying to make. I love Rob. He amazes me everyday. His personality, and all of his interests never cease to intrigue me. He always has something fun or interesting to do. He loves me, and respects me. He is patient and very kind, heck - he even cries during movies. I just...I know I sound so childish sometimes when I try to describe what it feels like when I am with him...and the only thing I can think of that definetly defines it for me personally, is that I can't even sing a love song (a good love song, not even a heart-break one) without tearing up, smiling, crying some more, and continue smiling even after the song is over and I've butchered it.
I love not being able to hold my happiness in when I think of Robert.