Sooner or later.
I suppose now is as good a time as any to update, seeing as I have sat around all day playing webkinz, throwing up, and sleeping insane amount. I called in sick today, and since I do not seem to have the motivation any other day to update this, why not now...just before I crash to sleep another night away, only to wake up at the ass-crack of dawn to work the 11 hour days I dread so much. Being a custodian sucks...not having options sucks even more.
Aside from being sick today, life has been alright. I havent cut in a long while, although the depression is still an ongoing struggle. I do think that breaking up with Jake was a big part of it. Although he was (and in most ways still is) a huge part of my life, it was a part that had spoiled over the duration of our romantic relationship. He and I are still friends, and the day I left for Africa was the day he left for Arizona. He says it's because living in Jackson would've been too painful, as everything would remind him of me...but I think even if he had stayed, he would've gotten over me regardless. He's doing well, and has moved on, as I told him he would. It just took definite separation for him to take the step into other relationships, even if those havent worked out. We talk still, and I like where we are now. We are the friends that we were four years ago, before we dated. The unhappiness of our relationship was weighing down on he and I both, and I think we've both much happier and healthier people now.
I met someone last year, some of you may have heard about him, or even met him, but his name is Robert. He's truly fantastic. I was so hesitant to get involved with someone so soon after Jake and I but I do not regret it and he and I grow stronger in our relationship each day we are together. By this time in the relationship with Jake, my parents, my friends, my family, and even myself could all pinpoint serious problem areas, and in retrospect I can now recognize serious problems that were overlooked (both of our faults), yet I have yet to be able to identify any of those with Rob. My family adores him, even my sister who is VERY critical of significant others' in regard to her siblings. My friends (the few that have met him) all seem to not only approve of him, but enjoy his company. But better than any of that...I like him, and each day am amazed at his character and prescence within my life. He seriously is the first thing I wake up thinking about, and damn near the last thing I fall asleep thinking about each night...I dont think I would have it any other way.
Anyways...my wrist hurts, and I have popsicles awaiting my tummy before bed...I'll update this more later. Maybe here on thursday, after work. (Tuesdays, thursdays, and fridays I only work 8 hours. Monday and Wednesday's I work 11)