wow...
Before you read this entry, keep in mind i'm pretty tipsy....
I give up. I'm tired of everything. I obviously will never find "the one". Everytime I think I've found the "the one", I lose. I lose bad. "Its like I'm on the stage, and I forgot the words, Its like I build a house with no roof and no doors, its like you change your hair and I don't say a thing".....I'M SORRY...."I can't be perfect"....
Rachael, this is not directed at you. I could NEVER be upset at you. I really don't think I could ever be mad at you. Just remember that. I'm NOT mad at you. I'm just upset that every time I think I've found someone, it gets shot to hell. This is by NO MEANS a guilt trip either.
I'm tired of not having anyone. No matter how hard I try, I won't either. I've said it before, I'll say it again..."I'm destined to be alone." I might seclude myself from the group for a while. I don't know. Most of the group is happy with someone. I was told to take the last one by the balls and run with it, well I see where that got me. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't. I wait, I'm in the "friend zone", I don't wait, they don't know me and don't want anything. Fuck it, fight it, its all the same. I give up. I'm not going to try to find anyone for a while. I guess I'll be happy alone, maybe. I'm tired of it. I've been alone for SOO long...if you don't believe me....add Wroughtinflames to your buddy list, ask him, he'll tell you the last time he remembers I was in a relationship where the other person cared for me as much as I cared for them. Guess what, HE WON'T REMEMBER. I hate this. Everyone be happy. I'll be the 13th wheel. I've always been the odd wheel out. Might as well not change now huh?
Fuck this, I'm going to smoke. I'll talk to everyone later.
BLT
I give up. I'm tired of everything. I obviously will never find "the one". Everytime I think I've found the "the one", I lose. I lose bad. "Its like I'm on the stage, and I forgot the words, Its like I build a house with no roof and no doors, its like you change your hair and I don't say a thing".....I'M SORRY...."I can't be perfect"....
Rachael, this is not directed at you. I could NEVER be upset at you. I really don't think I could ever be mad at you. Just remember that. I'm NOT mad at you. I'm just upset that every time I think I've found someone, it gets shot to hell. This is by NO MEANS a guilt trip either.
I'm tired of not having anyone. No matter how hard I try, I won't either. I've said it before, I'll say it again..."I'm destined to be alone." I might seclude myself from the group for a while. I don't know. Most of the group is happy with someone. I was told to take the last one by the balls and run with it, well I see where that got me. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't. I wait, I'm in the "friend zone", I don't wait, they don't know me and don't want anything. Fuck it, fight it, its all the same. I give up. I'm not going to try to find anyone for a while. I guess I'll be happy alone, maybe. I'm tired of it. I've been alone for SOO long...if you don't believe me....add Wroughtinflames to your buddy list, ask him, he'll tell you the last time he remembers I was in a relationship where the other person cared for me as much as I cared for them. Guess what, HE WON'T REMEMBER. I hate this. Everyone be happy. I'll be the 13th wheel. I've always been the odd wheel out. Might as well not change now huh?
Fuck this, I'm going to smoke. I'll talk to everyone later.
BLT