i dunno..
This is kind of a random entry...bear with me...there might be a few random topics thrown in...
Spring Break is coming up. I'm broke, and my parents who promised me they would finance it if I had good grades, are broke. What the fuck am I going to do? I'm not going to take money from people. I don't want to owe anyone anymore than I already do. Now, mind you, its not just money I owe people. I owe a few people ALOT more than money. I don't think that some people here know how much I really appreciate them.
I think I'm in trouble. Is it bad that when you drink in LARGE AMOUNTS you don't get drunk? Does that mean I drink too often? I've started drinking more, but I'm still able to pay attention to school. Now, granted, there are people here who think that I never go to class. They just don't know that I do. I DO GO TO CLASS!! Some issues have arised within myself. I don't want to be here still sometimes, but at the same time, I've made so many friends here that I would trust my life with, I don't want to leave them either. Maybe we all should just start our own damn college. Wait, that wouldn't work either, NONE of us would graduate. :: smiles a lil ::
My parents are coming up this weekend. I feel bad now because they were going to stay the entire weekend. Now mom feels like to save money so I will have some for Spring Break, they should only come up for the day on Saturday. I want them here for the weekend. I miss my parents. I'm going home like every two weeks now because I miss them. I miss home, I miss Kevin and Jennifer, I miss EVERYTHING. But I can't have my cake and eat it too.
*WARNING: I'm going on a spill now about relationships.*
Ok, NOW I feel alone. Something's wrong. Everyone I know is in SOME SORT of relationship now. I'm going to go through a run-down of the people in our group.
Jill = Shaggy
Phil = Melissa
Johnny = Rachael
Nate = new found confidence to pick up women
Fred = I'm not quite sure but there's something there with Kristen I THINK
Vic = Peggy
David = talking about Andrea all the time so there's something there
Amanda = Chris
SO GUESS WHAT..
ME = NOBODY
Now I know everyone's tired of hearing about "I don't have anyone, I'm alone, etc."...but look at that list...and tell me its not the truth. I think I'm going to stop now......tears are welling up...i'm not slipping into this again...
I guess "Every rose has its thorn". In this case, the rose is the wonderful life i have here at college...and the thorn is the fact that I have noone. I don't know. I'm going to bed now or...something....I dunno.....i might update again later....
BLT
Spring Break is coming up. I'm broke, and my parents who promised me they would finance it if I had good grades, are broke. What the fuck am I going to do? I'm not going to take money from people. I don't want to owe anyone anymore than I already do. Now, mind you, its not just money I owe people. I owe a few people ALOT more than money. I don't think that some people here know how much I really appreciate them.
I think I'm in trouble. Is it bad that when you drink in LARGE AMOUNTS you don't get drunk? Does that mean I drink too often? I've started drinking more, but I'm still able to pay attention to school. Now, granted, there are people here who think that I never go to class. They just don't know that I do. I DO GO TO CLASS!! Some issues have arised within myself. I don't want to be here still sometimes, but at the same time, I've made so many friends here that I would trust my life with, I don't want to leave them either. Maybe we all should just start our own damn college. Wait, that wouldn't work either, NONE of us would graduate. :: smiles a lil ::
My parents are coming up this weekend. I feel bad now because they were going to stay the entire weekend. Now mom feels like to save money so I will have some for Spring Break, they should only come up for the day on Saturday. I want them here for the weekend. I miss my parents. I'm going home like every two weeks now because I miss them. I miss home, I miss Kevin and Jennifer, I miss EVERYTHING. But I can't have my cake and eat it too.
*WARNING: I'm going on a spill now about relationships.*
Ok, NOW I feel alone. Something's wrong. Everyone I know is in SOME SORT of relationship now. I'm going to go through a run-down of the people in our group.
Jill = Shaggy
Phil = Melissa
Johnny = Rachael
Nate = new found confidence to pick up women
Fred = I'm not quite sure but there's something there with Kristen I THINK
Vic = Peggy
David = talking about Andrea all the time so there's something there
Amanda = Chris
SO GUESS WHAT..
ME = NOBODY
Now I know everyone's tired of hearing about "I don't have anyone, I'm alone, etc."...but look at that list...and tell me its not the truth. I think I'm going to stop now......tears are welling up...i'm not slipping into this again...
I guess "Every rose has its thorn". In this case, the rose is the wonderful life i have here at college...and the thorn is the fact that I have noone. I don't know. I'm going to bed now or...something....I dunno.....i might update again later....
BLT