My only non-friends only...
this isn't friends only, cause i think people should read it...
Choose 15 people at random, write them a comment, and no matter how much they beg, do not tell them which comment is to them.
1. This is supposed to be completely anonymous, hell you wont ever even read this, but everyone will now its about you. I love you, the person i knew before, not the person i know now. I hate the person i know now actually, you're a liar, and nothing more, i dont think i would believe you if you told me that you just stepped on a piece of gum. I'm almost in a way, completely guilty to the way our story played out. I know it wasn't all my fault, but its sad to know that you would've continued to try. I think sometimes that maybe instead of how you say i don't know what love truly is well the trut is YOU obviously never understood what it was, or what it meant, or how it felt. How you could lie about something so big still escapes me. I wouldve done anythign for you, and you knew that, and still do, and i know you know you could still have me whenever you wanted me, its sad and it honestly pushes me to the point of tears everytime i think about it. About us, and about what could have been. For so long you were my everything, and for so long i tried to push that away and pretend i didn't love you, because it scared me, and cause i was fucking 15, forever is a long word to just throw around, and so is love..but you did it, and you know what i hate her, and i hate what you turned me into. I kinda wish i hated you enough to scream the truth in her face, tell her everything you said about her, about us and to me..but i don't, because once again, i value your emotions and opinions on a higher regard then i could ever hold my own, and i stil just strive for you to be nothing but happy, even if that happy WITHOUT me. i'm so sorry for the sadness i cause you. but i guess i contradict myself because i'm not appoligizing to the new you, the you that exists now, I'm appoligizing to the person i knew, the person i fell in love with, and as much as i wish i could take back everything that happened between us in the begginning of this year, i dont regret it..I regret that i was naive enough to believe you, to be so wrapped that i didnt realize that you were lying straight to my face..and well thats all i can say, without giving away who you are, tho i'm sure you and every one else knows, i will always love the time we spent together, adn though your intentions werent perfect, i know you meant alot of the things you said, and of course, not out of free will, I'm still waiting for you..and it sucks, cause you always do these little things, like try to call me out in some way, try to make me feel stupid but i could so quickly ruin everything you have, make YOU look like the bad guy, make YOU regret it, but i can't because i still care about you more than i know what to do with, but i've learned one thing from you, life goes on, no matter how much it hurts, it will get better with time, "Its better this way.." Your famous last words, i replay them in my head constantly and i will never forget the last time you kissed me, cause from that second i knew it was good bye, and maybe it was forever, cause if its meant to be, well it'll happy, remember everytime you think about me you're the one that decided "Its better this way.."
2. You know, its weird, becuase, i love you i really do. I resent you alot, more then you know but i could never express this to you. I trust you but i don't, i'm always prepared for the worst and i wish i could talk to you about alot of this but it feels like you're too wrapped up in everyone else that you don't notice that I'm screaming for you to make it up to me, even tho i know you never could. I kinda expect you to do that one thing, that thing that proves to me that nothing changes, the thing that convinces me that i can trust you whole heartedly again, but everytime i think you're close, it just exedes you..I love you so much, but i hate what you did, I hate how you forgot about everyone who needed you most, because you found someone who made you believe they'd be there, when they weren't and you jsut ended up needing us, and it sucks cause i wanted to desert you in the time you needed me most, because its what you did to me, but i couldnt because i NEEDED to be tehre for you, because you needed someone, adn i wanted to be that someone because you always meant so much to me, and because i wanted to be apart of your lief and ebcause you needed someone and i thought maybe, just maybe, you could allow me back in my life and forgive me for my mistakes, and the thing is they were MY mistakes not yours but i was still begging and screaming for your approval and because i value our friendship more than anything else in my lfie...and it just feels liek you don't..and i know that things between us are slowly going back to what we used to have adn that makes me happy because i love you, i really do =)
3. I guess you're the perfect guy. Maybe thats why it never seemed to quite work out between us huh? Maybe its best, i would have screwed you up, I wouldve turned you into a form of myself. I hope you find someone who deserves you, cause none of the girls you've gone for do...and if you ever gave me a second chance, I'd never look back..
4.You're my strength, you're my pillar, the one thats been there through it all, sure we've had our pety stuff but no one ever would, or could replace you...Though I feel like you've found a substitution for me...and it hurts, but no matter what you will always mean much more to me than anyone else...you're so amazingly sterdy and such a good person that it makes me want to be better...you've helped me grow up alot..
5.You know, I don't hate you, half as much as you assume i do, or in a sense want me to. I should, by all means, its my right to hate you and its shocking i don't. You taught me alot about myself and why i do certain things, its more then just a minor situation, i think you meant so much to me because i needed you to, because i needed someone there to ease the pain, and in the beginning you made me so happy, i guess thats why i couldn't let go towards the end, cause i knew you could be the one, the one who made me happy again, because before you, i had no hope, i didn't think anyone could or would, and you braught out the old me, the me i dont let out very often because I'm so afraid to get hurt..In a sense you showed me that it was okay to be hurt and that it doesnt matter how tough you think you are you HAVE to cry sometimes, and i thank you for that, i thank you for opening me up again
6.You're amazing, not even kidding, you're so down to earth adn funny, and like idk it just seems like we click so well, but theres obsticales there that i can't just push aside, cause the pros and cons, well the cons out way the pros and i've been waiting a long time for a guy like you to come along, and it sucks that it had to happen the way it did, it sucks because for once the feelings, they're mutual and i can't do anything about it, and i won't, i won't let myself even fall for you because one of us is just going to get hurt in the long run and i dont want that
7.You're my best friend, you're so amazign, or you were, i think you let things go to your head too much, you took advantage of our friendship, and it sucks cause you complicated our entire friendship with your feelings, you complete left mine out of consideration and alot of your stupid little antics have just pushed me so far away that i dont know if i want or need things to go back to how they were, cause eventually they will end up how they are now
8. You're a cocky, selfish, stubborn piece of shit. I hate you, I really do, you're one of my least favorite people ever. How i ever, ever, ever liked you defeats me, cause all i see in you now is a fucking liar, and a rat bastard, i really wouldn't care if you just moved away forever
9. You're stupid, Naive and Completely Typical. Just when you start to think you're unique and original, just remember, you're just my replacement. I think its funny, really how DUMB you are, you'll never take my place. I know you're close to it and i don't deny that its somewhat real, but you'll never had what we had..go slit your wrist
10.I'm so glad we finally met, and cleared this whole hating each other thing up. You're one of the coolest chicks i've ever met, and i wish we could hang out more, cause i seriously have so much fun with you, its so....DrAMa FrEE...
11.Why don't we talk anymore, you meant so much to me, you were my best friend, not just best GUY friend, but my best friend in general, i loved whereour friendship was, you were so ireplacable, but i learned i was just a substitution for the one you couldnt have, but it was hard to know who that was, cause it was a different one of my friends every week, it was hard to keep up with, I'm sorry i let you slip away but we lost the connection we had, i couldnt talk about my best friend 24/7 and you couldn't talk about anything else, i wish we could just be what we used to, there are nights when I'm so upset i just wanna crawl out my window and walk to your house and just talk to you, like the good old days, but its not like that, and i miss it
12.I love you, and i just wish i could help you. I dont fully understand what you're going through and how it affects you, im glad we talk alot more now, there was a point where i thought i lost you, i just wish you would open up more, so you wouldnt have to resort to other methods =\ I want to understand more, and i wish we could just have more time to spend together, but our schedules just never seem to cordinate
13. I don't hate you, or not as much as i say i do. I think i kinda respect you almost, you like everyone else taught me alot about myself, and you will be the reason i never repeat my mistakes
14.WOW, i don't like alot of things you do, i like you as a person and there are some things about you that worry me alot, but i hate how spiteful adn vendictive you are, i hate how you feel you have to get revenge, i hate how you think you're tough shit, just open up and admitt you have emtotions, live your life for your own happiness not other peoples sadness
15.3 words, Whiney, Dramatic, BITTTTCCCHHH=) I love you Hott Mama!!;) no but on a serious note, i like this relationship we have now, so much better then the one we had, i felt there was alot of decietuflness and maliulation in our old relationship and now its just like, so amazing cause i remember why i loved you so much and i dont wanna lose you again, but i dont wanna go back to that perpetual state of manipulation and fear you're amazing, dont let anyone tell you different, still waiting for that boy to come in your life and crack you, you lil hard ass
Choose 15 people at random, write them a comment, and no matter how much they beg, do not tell them which comment is to them.
1. This is supposed to be completely anonymous, hell you wont ever even read this, but everyone will now its about you. I love you, the person i knew before, not the person i know now. I hate the person i know now actually, you're a liar, and nothing more, i dont think i would believe you if you told me that you just stepped on a piece of gum. I'm almost in a way, completely guilty to the way our story played out. I know it wasn't all my fault, but its sad to know that you would've continued to try. I think sometimes that maybe instead of how you say i don't know what love truly is well the trut is YOU obviously never understood what it was, or what it meant, or how it felt. How you could lie about something so big still escapes me. I wouldve done anythign for you, and you knew that, and still do, and i know you know you could still have me whenever you wanted me, its sad and it honestly pushes me to the point of tears everytime i think about it. About us, and about what could have been. For so long you were my everything, and for so long i tried to push that away and pretend i didn't love you, because it scared me, and cause i was fucking 15, forever is a long word to just throw around, and so is love..but you did it, and you know what i hate her, and i hate what you turned me into. I kinda wish i hated you enough to scream the truth in her face, tell her everything you said about her, about us and to me..but i don't, because once again, i value your emotions and opinions on a higher regard then i could ever hold my own, and i stil just strive for you to be nothing but happy, even if that happy WITHOUT me. i'm so sorry for the sadness i cause you. but i guess i contradict myself because i'm not appoligizing to the new you, the you that exists now, I'm appoligizing to the person i knew, the person i fell in love with, and as much as i wish i could take back everything that happened between us in the begginning of this year, i dont regret it..I regret that i was naive enough to believe you, to be so wrapped that i didnt realize that you were lying straight to my face..and well thats all i can say, without giving away who you are, tho i'm sure you and every one else knows, i will always love the time we spent together, adn though your intentions werent perfect, i know you meant alot of the things you said, and of course, not out of free will, I'm still waiting for you..and it sucks, cause you always do these little things, like try to call me out in some way, try to make me feel stupid but i could so quickly ruin everything you have, make YOU look like the bad guy, make YOU regret it, but i can't because i still care about you more than i know what to do with, but i've learned one thing from you, life goes on, no matter how much it hurts, it will get better with time, "Its better this way.." Your famous last words, i replay them in my head constantly and i will never forget the last time you kissed me, cause from that second i knew it was good bye, and maybe it was forever, cause if its meant to be, well it'll happy, remember everytime you think about me you're the one that decided "Its better this way.."
2. You know, its weird, becuase, i love you i really do. I resent you alot, more then you know but i could never express this to you. I trust you but i don't, i'm always prepared for the worst and i wish i could talk to you about alot of this but it feels like you're too wrapped up in everyone else that you don't notice that I'm screaming for you to make it up to me, even tho i know you never could. I kinda expect you to do that one thing, that thing that proves to me that nothing changes, the thing that convinces me that i can trust you whole heartedly again, but everytime i think you're close, it just exedes you..I love you so much, but i hate what you did, I hate how you forgot about everyone who needed you most, because you found someone who made you believe they'd be there, when they weren't and you jsut ended up needing us, and it sucks cause i wanted to desert you in the time you needed me most, because its what you did to me, but i couldnt because i NEEDED to be tehre for you, because you needed someone, adn i wanted to be that someone because you always meant so much to me, and because i wanted to be apart of your lief and ebcause you needed someone and i thought maybe, just maybe, you could allow me back in my life and forgive me for my mistakes, and the thing is they were MY mistakes not yours but i was still begging and screaming for your approval and because i value our friendship more than anything else in my lfie...and it just feels liek you don't..and i know that things between us are slowly going back to what we used to have adn that makes me happy because i love you, i really do =)
3. I guess you're the perfect guy. Maybe thats why it never seemed to quite work out between us huh? Maybe its best, i would have screwed you up, I wouldve turned you into a form of myself. I hope you find someone who deserves you, cause none of the girls you've gone for do...and if you ever gave me a second chance, I'd never look back..
4.You're my strength, you're my pillar, the one thats been there through it all, sure we've had our pety stuff but no one ever would, or could replace you...Though I feel like you've found a substitution for me...and it hurts, but no matter what you will always mean much more to me than anyone else...you're so amazingly sterdy and such a good person that it makes me want to be better...you've helped me grow up alot..
5.You know, I don't hate you, half as much as you assume i do, or in a sense want me to. I should, by all means, its my right to hate you and its shocking i don't. You taught me alot about myself and why i do certain things, its more then just a minor situation, i think you meant so much to me because i needed you to, because i needed someone there to ease the pain, and in the beginning you made me so happy, i guess thats why i couldn't let go towards the end, cause i knew you could be the one, the one who made me happy again, because before you, i had no hope, i didn't think anyone could or would, and you braught out the old me, the me i dont let out very often because I'm so afraid to get hurt..In a sense you showed me that it was okay to be hurt and that it doesnt matter how tough you think you are you HAVE to cry sometimes, and i thank you for that, i thank you for opening me up again
6.You're amazing, not even kidding, you're so down to earth adn funny, and like idk it just seems like we click so well, but theres obsticales there that i can't just push aside, cause the pros and cons, well the cons out way the pros and i've been waiting a long time for a guy like you to come along, and it sucks that it had to happen the way it did, it sucks because for once the feelings, they're mutual and i can't do anything about it, and i won't, i won't let myself even fall for you because one of us is just going to get hurt in the long run and i dont want that
7.You're my best friend, you're so amazign, or you were, i think you let things go to your head too much, you took advantage of our friendship, and it sucks cause you complicated our entire friendship with your feelings, you complete left mine out of consideration and alot of your stupid little antics have just pushed me so far away that i dont know if i want or need things to go back to how they were, cause eventually they will end up how they are now
8. You're a cocky, selfish, stubborn piece of shit. I hate you, I really do, you're one of my least favorite people ever. How i ever, ever, ever liked you defeats me, cause all i see in you now is a fucking liar, and a rat bastard, i really wouldn't care if you just moved away forever
9. You're stupid, Naive and Completely Typical. Just when you start to think you're unique and original, just remember, you're just my replacement. I think its funny, really how DUMB you are, you'll never take my place. I know you're close to it and i don't deny that its somewhat real, but you'll never had what we had..go slit your wrist
10.I'm so glad we finally met, and cleared this whole hating each other thing up. You're one of the coolest chicks i've ever met, and i wish we could hang out more, cause i seriously have so much fun with you, its so....DrAMa FrEE...
11.Why don't we talk anymore, you meant so much to me, you were my best friend, not just best GUY friend, but my best friend in general, i loved whereour friendship was, you were so ireplacable, but i learned i was just a substitution for the one you couldnt have, but it was hard to know who that was, cause it was a different one of my friends every week, it was hard to keep up with, I'm sorry i let you slip away but we lost the connection we had, i couldnt talk about my best friend 24/7 and you couldn't talk about anything else, i wish we could just be what we used to, there are nights when I'm so upset i just wanna crawl out my window and walk to your house and just talk to you, like the good old days, but its not like that, and i miss it
12.I love you, and i just wish i could help you. I dont fully understand what you're going through and how it affects you, im glad we talk alot more now, there was a point where i thought i lost you, i just wish you would open up more, so you wouldnt have to resort to other methods =\ I want to understand more, and i wish we could just have more time to spend together, but our schedules just never seem to cordinate
13. I don't hate you, or not as much as i say i do. I think i kinda respect you almost, you like everyone else taught me alot about myself, and you will be the reason i never repeat my mistakes
14.WOW, i don't like alot of things you do, i like you as a person and there are some things about you that worry me alot, but i hate how spiteful adn vendictive you are, i hate how you feel you have to get revenge, i hate how you think you're tough shit, just open up and admitt you have emtotions, live your life for your own happiness not other peoples sadness
15.3 words, Whiney, Dramatic, BITTTTCCCHHH=) I love you Hott Mama!!;) no but on a serious note, i like this relationship we have now, so much better then the one we had, i felt there was alot of decietuflness and maliulation in our old relationship and now its just like, so amazing cause i remember why i loved you so much and i dont wanna lose you again, but i dont wanna go back to that perpetual state of manipulation and fear you're amazing, dont let anyone tell you different, still waiting for that boy to come in your life and crack you, you lil hard ass