Jun 10, 2006 22:25
Okay, ya know what. Yeah i love you. Id do anything for you, id give up anything for you ... id be there for you no matter what. But one thing i am not gunna do, is let you treat me like nothing. We've been through WAY too much for you to be actin like im nothin. DO you really feel its nesicary to say these things to me? Do you think its funny to tell me you love me one day and then tell me you dont even know if u wanna hang out anymore the next? I cant just sit here and wait around forever. Yeah i would if i knew that you were gunna come through in the end, but to be honest, how can i ever beleive anything you say again? You promise me your not going to leave me one day, and literally the NEXT fucking day you walk out on me. If you werent happy like you said, you put on a damn good front ... and i obviously can't see through it.
And who are you? WHo are you to talk to me the way you do. HAHAHA it makes me laugh. I mean who are you kidding? I dont need you. I love you, but i sure as hell dont need you. There are a million guys out there who would be more then willing to take care of me and keep the promises they make. I thought you were that one.
Im so confused. One minute i dont wanna put up with any of your shit and wanna tell you to fuck off and never talk to you again, and the next minute i wanna call you and tell you i love you and ill take all your shit. I dont know what the fuck to do. I do know i love you ... but if you dont hurry your going to lose me.
ANd i know what your doing. You wanna be single for the moment but you know in about a month your gunna want me back so your keeping me in. Because you rememeber how much you hurt last time you did this to me. But by the time u realized it i moved on. You dont want that to happen again. But at the same time you dont know if youll need me in the end. But i cant move on. As much as i think i should ... i can't. I hate you. I hate you because you make me love you.