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ok..so heres how things went yesterday. i drug myself out of bed at noon, got int he shower, got ready and went out to my moms, got there around 2:30sih...called steven, i was upset, ina bad mood etc. so we kinda fought for a second. But then he got over it, came and got me and we went to the texas road house for dinner, food was really pretty good. Then we went and saw Open Range, the new Kevin Costner movie! OMG i loved it! i love Kevin Costner!! heheh
He dropped me off at moms at about 7ish, ppl were starting to show up for the party mom was having for me. Everyone finally shows at like 7:30, the cake was so pretty..i'll get mom to send me a pic of it. i got some cute stuff, care bears stuff from my little sis, piggy bank, necklacess, and perfume form my older sis, money form my uncle, a party and a new TV from my mom and step-dad, and a beanie baby form my little bro. and a few other things i'd rather not talk about, lol...(the first year im single, go figure) everyone sang happy b-day, i made my wish....held back tears as to not dissapoint everyone...and they all left.
i called steven he came over, and we sat on the back pourch and talked from 8 till about 3am when my mom fell asleep...we hashed open alot of shit from his past and mine....so i was already tore up, he was reluctent to leave me alone, but i told him it was best. so he left...i sat ehre and cried all night..not a wink of sleep...i sat in the shower and cried untill the water ran cold...then sat in bed looking at old pics till i lost it and put them up, and i curle dup on the sofa...tried to get some sleep...but i was t scared to sleep...scared i would have another dream....a happy one...then i'll wake up and be alone again...so i havent slept. i cant eat. i feel like a fool. but im 17.
anyone think i am strong enough to pull through....?
He dropped me off at moms at about 7ish, ppl were starting to show up for the party mom was having for me. Everyone finally shows at like 7:30, the cake was so pretty..i'll get mom to send me a pic of it. i got some cute stuff, care bears stuff from my little sis, piggy bank, necklacess, and perfume form my older sis, money form my uncle, a party and a new TV from my mom and step-dad, and a beanie baby form my little bro. and a few other things i'd rather not talk about, lol...(the first year im single, go figure) everyone sang happy b-day, i made my wish....held back tears as to not dissapoint everyone...and they all left.
i called steven he came over, and we sat on the back pourch and talked from 8 till about 3am when my mom fell asleep...we hashed open alot of shit from his past and mine....so i was already tore up, he was reluctent to leave me alone, but i told him it was best. so he left...i sat ehre and cried all night..not a wink of sleep...i sat in the shower and cried untill the water ran cold...then sat in bed looking at old pics till i lost it and put them up, and i curle dup on the sofa...tried to get some sleep...but i was t scared to sleep...scared i would have another dream....a happy one...then i'll wake up and be alone again...so i havent slept. i cant eat. i feel like a fool. but im 17.
anyone think i am strong enough to pull through....?