This Is How Bad It's Been
I haven't showered in 3 days.
I haven't brushed my teeth in 3 days
I haven't brushed my hair in 3 days.
I don't even put on a bra when I go to work.
I do nothing but work and cry.
I cant sleep bc Ill dream about Copper, All I do is think about him all day.
I wish a semi truck would just take me out. Brian seems to think I love Copper more than him bc I'm doing all this to myself with "no regards to him". But its not about him. If I was told I lost my job, I wouldn't care. If I was told I won the lottery, I wouldn't care, Shit,Id be pissed off that I didn't have that money before.
People don't understand unless they've lost someone they really loved, or an animal that was attached to them. Grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, etc don't fucking count. Fuck that bullshit. Most animals are with you more than anything else. They're with you EVERYDAY, 24/7 almost. So losing that is the HARDEST. It's literally like feeling a piece of you die. If not most of you.
I feel dead. I wish I was