I Got Fired....
NOT REALLY but...that's what it feels like. I didn't really get fired. I just have a new position, since they don't think I can do what I've been doing for 3 years. Yea. I don't get it either. Pretty fucked if you ask me. So this is what happend. Those who's know I've been having trouble at work. Always getting in trouble for not even doing anything wrong with other people doing stuff way worse, them watching every account I do and saying I'm doing it wrong when I clearly see other people not even working the accounts. So I had gotten talked to about my "production" like 3 weeks ago, and she said I had 2 weeks to get better or further action would be taken and I'd probably get a written warning. Now, knowing this, don't you think I'd do the best I can? Yea. And I ask people what I should do, and if they tell me to do it a certain way, I still get in trouble obviously. Which is bullshit. They need to talk to the trainers and make sure they're training right. I know what started this, they saw that my numbers were high so they had to look at every single fucking thing I do. The more you do, the more errors you're going to make. It's called math. But apparently they were saying I wasn't calling on certain ones. That's funny because NO ONE else calls on them either yet they don't get in trouble. It's funny that I've worked a certain payor 2 years ago and KNOW how to do it, and just got retrained on it and when I have any questions, I ask my trainer and do what SHE advises, yet STILL get in trouble. So it fucking pisses me off that I do what I think is right, and everyone else is doing, yet I'M the one getting fucking written up and harrassed!! It's fucking BULLSHIT!!!
So me being the fucking cry baby I am, trust me, I can't help it. I have NO control over it. It upset more more because there's NOTHING I can about it but TAKE IT. That's why I was so upset. They said that they don't think this is the job for me, but that there was a Payment Posting postition open and they said they think that's more for me, and I would succeed. Now if I'd known about the position, I would've already went ahead and applied for it, but they wanted to go ahead and write me up so they would have an excuse not to gimme a raise this year. That's ok. I'm getting by just fine without and extra 7 cents. Thankyouverymuch. AND this position/team is the ONLY one that gets Overtime!!! It's funny because everyone complains about how they wish they could work overtime and I'D be working the overtime! AND I'd be on a different team, I won't have to deal with all the BULLSHIT! I won't sit next to ms nosey snitch bitch. I'll sit on the other side of the building, near a window and not out in the open! My pay stays the same. So I think this might have been a Blessing In Disguise. I would MUCH rather have this new position, I just HATE how it happend. I hate getting written up and I told them, they have to understand from my point of view how I've been doing fine for 3 years and all of a sudden this happens and it seemed to come from left field. I personally think it's because of my old boss. She was cool and relaxed and looked out for me. But they said they don't look down on me, because they said if they didn't want me, they'd keep wrting me up and send me out the door, but they obviously think I'm a good assett to the company if they want to help and keep me. The new position is more me anyways. I'ts just posting, you have to be fast like I am. I just sit, head down, and do my work, So it's perfect. I won't have to send claims, appeals, call insurance, and my pay stays the same. I'm trying to look at the bright side. I just don't want them to be biased, And I'm going to tell my new boss, that PLEASE tell me if I'm doing something wrong, because I don't want to do my job wrong bc that won't benifet me OR the company, and not wait 3 fucking years to tell me. Well I won't say the last part.
I start my new position Monday morning at 8 a.m. I'll do my training by a real trainer. It will be one on one so I'll feel more comfortable asking questions. I'm pretty excited. I mean, I'm pissed off about HOW it happend. I'm mad as hell. But you know, I'm going to call the side that I was on the "Dark Side". So much bad shit happens over there and Now I'll be on the Other Side. Oh I can't wait to hear the gossip! Why she left? What happened? Bla bla bla. Hehe. But no way in hell will I tell ANYONE what really happend. Everyone knows I hated my job so I'll just say I inquired about another position. It's no ones buisness. And trust me, you can't tell not ONE person something, or some how SOME way, the WHOLE building will find out. Yes. You know that one person you think is Your best friend that you think you can tell ANYTHING to, has a best friend they think THEY can tell anything too, and then you're shit will get passed around. Trust me. So yea. It will be a relief, a burden lifted off my shoulders. But I can't help to feel like I got screwed. I'm trying to decide if it was worth it. On one way, yea it is, but then I just think of everyone else getting away with way worse and I just get pissed again. I guess we'll see what happends Monday. I just need to fuck Reimburstment. They fucked me. So Fuck them.
So obviously I didn't get fired. I feel like I got fired from my position, but I got a better one in the end......Jokes on them!
Wish Me Luck in the New Job Position!
So needless to say, I haven't had a good day. I'm PMSing, I tried to run today, but my knee almost gave out and my oil change was 40 fucking dollars, then with work, I just broke down and cried again. BUT I went to do some Christmas Shopping, and my mom is in town, so that stuff makes me feel better. *sigh*