i hate life...
No one goes on here any more, so i came here to wright... I ran away again... heh, figures right... i dont like games and i gave up playing them... why tell someone you love them if the are not going to tell you they love you back, because i like the pain... i cant do that any more... i have ran away in the sence to make me better... i live in the cape now i have a job, that feels pretty good... fred is helping me get a car once i start getting pay checks... he lets me use his for now... all in all i should be happy... but im not... i dont know why... i miss heather dearly, i dont even talk to her everyday... i dont have any friedns any more, i left them all... i left everything, but i guess it is for the better... it really make me depressed when i think about it all, but what can you do... sit here and cry and when people are around put on the best act i have ever put on... pretty good right... heh, no one here knows the difference... but hey it is all good... just need pills that make you forget the past... dont know if they make thoese... well... i miss my cat, and my brother... i miss my house strangly... heh, i dont know what to do really... drink lol nah, tonight is the first night i have done that in a bit and, idk... i feel a sickness in my tummy... work 6 days a week, 8-6... come here and do... nothing... it is pretty boring... but let me tell ya, i cant sleep any more... i have slept too much... idk,just felt like talking and, it is better than talking to a wall i guess... idk... wish i had someone to talk to i guess... well im out...