Back to School...
There's school tomorrow, sucks. i can't sleep it's like 1:30 and all i could do is toss and turn,urgh. i was just laying there and tossing and turning and thinking and i felt like wrighting. my vacation was a good one not long enought tho. i noticed that when i was home i don't rember much of what i did, but when i was with Amanda i rember everything, from staying up late playing games to just putting it on pause to watch her sleep and touch her face. my love for her is so deep and nothing is ever going to break that. while i was in bed i listened to my mom come up our thirteen stairs and get out of breath at the top of them, she's not getting any better or younger. she needs to stop smoking, i need to stop smoking. i still have alot of time tho, she does not. i mean i know that it is not just her smoking, its her back deterating slowly everyday but i know that her stoping smoking will help. she tries to do stuff around the house but it's to hard for her sometimes and i can fully understand seeing her back x-ray's, i don't know what to do, i mean i would give her my back if it was possable. well, i know that she is not going to die soon or get horrably worse soon, but she's my mom i'm going to worrie and think like this seeing how she is my only parent left, time flys by, feels like just the other day i met Amanda, just the other day i had good friends i don't now, feels like just the other day i started bristol aggie, but it's not i met Amanda over a year ago, i lost good friends through out four years and made new ones,and in not even 5 months, im out of bristol aggie. life is crazy wish there was a pause botton like in games so i can catch up with my life that is running away without me, alot of my friends are going to college, i don't even know where i want to go i don't think i want to and i know that i do not have to but, i don't even have a job yet, but i have a idea of what i want to do but i am not 18 yet so that has to wait. and that job will be better when i am out of high school and i have a car, i don't even have a car yet. i feel like a snail on a high way and everyone is speeding. well it's 2 now and i do have to get up early so i am going to go...bye bye