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so im stuck in this hell whole that we would all decide to call work.. pity to know that i havent seen any of u in so long not that any of u really care to begin with. i wanna get outta this place, and place meaning the place where we call home. i need to leave. i need to leave this island. just completely start over in a completely new city.
i remember the past and how i was so much more happier. i remember how everything seemed to changed after sophomore year. life completely took a Uie and basically said FUCK YOU. i remember i used to give hugs to everyone, how i used to love being around people, how i used to value being around everyone, how i valued love. but now i feel so cold. i feel that i cant love any of you and that i cant be loved by any of u. everyone not only i have become cold. seems like now were all people with painted smiles on our faces in a place where trying to be yourself is looked down apon. its a struggle to smile now, its a struggle to hug u and be held, its a stuggle to even call u a friend. u've all seemed to have faded and i cant seem to change my view about it. i wish i could say that i love u all. but i cant seem to even love myself anymore. i just want the pain to go away
i remember the past and how i was so much more happier. i remember how everything seemed to changed after sophomore year. life completely took a Uie and basically said FUCK YOU. i remember i used to give hugs to everyone, how i used to love being around people, how i used to value being around everyone, how i valued love. but now i feel so cold. i feel that i cant love any of you and that i cant be loved by any of u. everyone not only i have become cold. seems like now were all people with painted smiles on our faces in a place where trying to be yourself is looked down apon. its a struggle to smile now, its a struggle to hug u and be held, its a stuggle to even call u a friend. u've all seemed to have faded and i cant seem to change my view about it. i wish i could say that i love u all. but i cant seem to even love myself anymore. i just want the pain to go away