Aug 26, 2005 11:09
falling in love took me awhile to do, but when it happened i could have taken on the world. i want to tell her how much i feel for her, but i cant express it in words. i know she loves me and cares, but i wish there was something i could do to make her feel like before when we first met. i know we have spent a lot of time together, and that she has missed spending time with her friends. if that is all she wants to do now, spend time with her friends, i will gladly give her room. just as long as she will be my girlfriend. i have spent more time with katie than all my other relationships added together. there have been days when i wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out, but katie would wrap her arms around me and at that moment nothing else would matter. the only thing im afraid of is losing my love.
thinking back to when we first dated and even to when i first started college, katie was always forgiving and there for me. now i want to be there for her. i never really realised how much we went through. the first month we dated it snowed heavily and i couldnt drive in it, but i walked all the way to katies house. at that instant i knew it would work. i would never hold katie back from accomplishing anything, i just want to be there to hug her when she does. if we can keep this together through college, which i bet we can, then we can think about settling down. everytime i think about her or see her i get the butterflies. i think that if you do love someone and you think about all the good times together then it is only a matter of time before you fall in love with them. to many, katie has flaws, but to me they are only there to make the perfect person. everytime a girl starts to hit on me i proudly tell them i have the perfect girl and then i pull out a picture of katie. now really thinking about it, 1 year and 8 months is a long time and if she needs to take some alone time to really reconnect with those around her, then its fine. i have seen what it was like to be alone, and i have seen what its like to be together and i choose us.
i dont want to marry now, or own a house now, i am just a boy asking a girl to love me.
so if you are reading this baby, muah, love you lots, and i am always waiting by the phone,
love mason