"Life sucks... and then you die"
So life is really shitty right now, since me and Chris have been broken up. I really miss him but there's nothing I can do about it. I've been going back to my old "habits," and that doesn't even make me feel better.
I got fired on friday, and I might not graduate because I'm boderline failing English. Ever since we broke up I've been fucking up really bad. I feel like I have no control over my life- if you think about it, nobody really has control over their life. What stops you from getting hit by a car and dying tommorow? You have no control. You can not play in traffic, that'll decrease your odds of getting hit, but indirectly- you have no control. You can get up from the computer after you read this, get a really bad headache, go to take a nap and die of a brain anyurism (however the fuck you spell it)- absolutely no control.
So this is the way I've been feeling for the last few weeks. My attitude is pretty much, in 100 years we're all going to be dead, so why the fuck does it matter?
I got fired on friday, and I might not graduate because I'm boderline failing English. Ever since we broke up I've been fucking up really bad. I feel like I have no control over my life- if you think about it, nobody really has control over their life. What stops you from getting hit by a car and dying tommorow? You have no control. You can not play in traffic, that'll decrease your odds of getting hit, but indirectly- you have no control. You can get up from the computer after you read this, get a really bad headache, go to take a nap and die of a brain anyurism (however the fuck you spell it)- absolutely no control.
So this is the way I've been feeling for the last few weeks. My attitude is pretty much, in 100 years we're all going to be dead, so why the fuck does it matter?