Oct 23, 2005 23:38
I'm sick of all this being in love bullshit, being in a serious relationship. It's never worth it, it's just a bunch of fucking drama that never goes away and you can never ditch off the other person because YOU FUCKING LOVE THEM and you don't want them to hurt, so you just end up sacrificing your happiness and put them before you. Then you get really depressed and you start slacking off in school because there is no motivation to do anything, there is always someone on the phone who keeps wanting, wanting, wanting, give me some fucking attention please! It's not like I go to high school, go to Pima for a time consuming class, work about thirty hours a week, "volunteer" five hours a week at an elementary school, not to mention the fact that I HAVE HOMEWORK! I can't stay up until 2 in the morning because you have a problem with someone else and you want to take it out on me because I did something incredibly small and stupid to set you off. Why do our heads betray us like this, put us through this shit and not let us out? Why would humans evolve into such fucked up little creatures?
So now I am back at square one, where I've been two times already, now I'm back. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do, I can't help myself anymore. I'm just going to give up again.
All this shit, and my precious baby kitty Mr. Magoo didn't come home tonight.