Why can't I?
Why is there a recognized second place, when in the end second place isn’t quite as good as first in all the places where it counts? I mean we get raised up in life with the idea that there is three notable places, first second and third, when really the later two are just so that the ones who didn’t quite make it feel like they accomplished something more than the rest of the other losers… second and third places are still losers, just better appreciated and far more noted than the rest. I mean, lets speak of the most important time we all came in first… we can all congratulate ourselves on being the first unlucky bastards to make it in that damn egg… thank goodness for fertilization and the initiation of the eternal chain. What if you came in second there, you might have not gotten shit at all, you may have just been one of those other billion left hanging around wondering.. “Well what the hell do we do now?” No one inspired us then, but we sure as hell pulled it off, one might even say it’s in us to be first place in everything… so why do we give any consolation to anything other than first? Why give extrinsic motivation to people who aren’t going to try their hardest to do the job… I mean if all through my life I only knew of first place, I would have never been ok with receiving second or third or any of the shit after that, I’m not ok with being told it’s ok to not be first… no… I phrased that incorrectly. I’m ok with not being first, but I’m not ok with the fact that people play like life is going to be some game, like all the endeavors we embark upon will always yield a second and third place to fall back upon. It really blinds children to the fact that in life there isn’t some third place for you to hope to land in when someone takes your job or there isn’t some second place when the girl you think you love loves another. There isn’t a second place for the guy or girl who commits suicide, or dies in the wreck coming home…. Why do people feel the need to provide a coushin to children when in the end the goal is always to be first? I dunno… Maybe I’m just blind, I remember there was a point I didn’t care about being first at anything, I was just interested in being happy. Why can’t I just be happy anymore?