It's not venting, it's letting the people know how the fuck they should act.
Yeah... went to tri-fest with a tara, and powers, francesca, audrey and daniel... got seperated at somepoint and ended up with ben and some other guys. The night went downhill for a part from there... I didn't know where my sister was and I got to witness first hand the very things I'd only heard about... not only that I stood by doing little of nothing.
The mob mentality that's taken by a group of fairly level headed men, makes them seem like adolecent monkeys, and all in all was quite annoying to witness. People who I knew to be fairly good in heart did things that they wouldn't do or say to their own sisters yet would to someone they'd value as a friend. No matter how annoying or crazy someone might seem or act, they are still human, and still have feelings no matter how much they smile, or laugh at what's said or done... even if left open, that person is only trying to fit in with people that seem to accept them, when really they fit in only as the role given to them. Not as an equal, or another friend to socialize with, but as something less than human to be toyed with and disrespected and made fun of repeatedly on such a level... on such a level... the bad taste that's left in my mouth behind what happened is pretty impressive because I don't usually feel so strongly about such things... But understand, what level of gratitude or respect that I had for everyone in that group lowered... not just a little, but a lot.
"It's like, yeah, you can hang around with us, call us your friends, but in turn you have to let us make fun of you, disrespect you, humiliate you even. But if you're alright with that, and we're alright that we could do that to someone that we consider a "friend" then sure come hang out." That's what I imagined comming from the mouthes of each one of them, save one person perhaps two. To act two different ways, not just slightly differing but differing drastically, comes off to most people who are only acting as spectators as being two faced, and a show of just how much you are capable of being grown up... So yeah, congrats on another wonderful trifest, and know I view you in an entirely different light now.
And don't wonder what I'm talking about either... everyone by now should know I've always liked and cared a great deal for my friends... and when a friend were to step out of line with another one or something of the sort, I let them know... This just bothered me to a level that I can't even describe... it made me sick that humans walked the earth... men even. Represent yourselves a little fucking better, because trust, the next time I'm witness to something like that. I'm not going to open my mouth, I'm going to let the fool in me act and hurt some people the only way they seem to understand. Physically... You're fucking grown and you should know that shit isn't right to do to someone no matter how much they bother you... if you want someone to leave you alone, fucking say it! Don't treat the person like shit hoping they get the message. Because you're only pleasing yourself... and hurting more than you probably think you're hurting. Thank god I didn't do this down there... because someone would have opened their damn mouth as if they had some place to and I would have been short 650 in bail money that I don't fucking have because I have never felt such a feeling in me before... no I have it was like watching a group of people act like my step father and anyone who knows how I view him, knows that, that is not what to fucking do. In closing, never fucking ruin my night like that again, and if you're saying well, maybe you should have said something, or maybe you should have left, ask yourself why the hell did I need to be put in that situation in the first place? What demanded that I needed to see people I considered good people, act like damn fools, and children let loose for recess without a day of parenting. So if you have a problem with what I've said... post it, call me, you know my number, hell you might even know where I live, just be ready to explain yourself and at what point durring when you were raised that your mom or dad said treating anyone like that was right and just, much less a friend, even more so a woman. Pissed doesn't describe my feelings right now... not by a long shot. It took every last ounce of patience to not go full out nigger on someones ass tonight. And to plant a size 15 boot in someones ass. Never expect me to hang out like that again.
The mob mentality that's taken by a group of fairly level headed men, makes them seem like adolecent monkeys, and all in all was quite annoying to witness. People who I knew to be fairly good in heart did things that they wouldn't do or say to their own sisters yet would to someone they'd value as a friend. No matter how annoying or crazy someone might seem or act, they are still human, and still have feelings no matter how much they smile, or laugh at what's said or done... even if left open, that person is only trying to fit in with people that seem to accept them, when really they fit in only as the role given to them. Not as an equal, or another friend to socialize with, but as something less than human to be toyed with and disrespected and made fun of repeatedly on such a level... on such a level... the bad taste that's left in my mouth behind what happened is pretty impressive because I don't usually feel so strongly about such things... But understand, what level of gratitude or respect that I had for everyone in that group lowered... not just a little, but a lot.
"It's like, yeah, you can hang around with us, call us your friends, but in turn you have to let us make fun of you, disrespect you, humiliate you even. But if you're alright with that, and we're alright that we could do that to someone that we consider a "friend" then sure come hang out." That's what I imagined comming from the mouthes of each one of them, save one person perhaps two. To act two different ways, not just slightly differing but differing drastically, comes off to most people who are only acting as spectators as being two faced, and a show of just how much you are capable of being grown up... So yeah, congrats on another wonderful trifest, and know I view you in an entirely different light now.
And don't wonder what I'm talking about either... everyone by now should know I've always liked and cared a great deal for my friends... and when a friend were to step out of line with another one or something of the sort, I let them know... This just bothered me to a level that I can't even describe... it made me sick that humans walked the earth... men even. Represent yourselves a little fucking better, because trust, the next time I'm witness to something like that. I'm not going to open my mouth, I'm going to let the fool in me act and hurt some people the only way they seem to understand. Physically... You're fucking grown and you should know that shit isn't right to do to someone no matter how much they bother you... if you want someone to leave you alone, fucking say it! Don't treat the person like shit hoping they get the message. Because you're only pleasing yourself... and hurting more than you probably think you're hurting. Thank god I didn't do this down there... because someone would have opened their damn mouth as if they had some place to and I would have been short 650 in bail money that I don't fucking have because I have never felt such a feeling in me before... no I have it was like watching a group of people act like my step father and anyone who knows how I view him, knows that, that is not what to fucking do. In closing, never fucking ruin my night like that again, and if you're saying well, maybe you should have said something, or maybe you should have left, ask yourself why the hell did I need to be put in that situation in the first place? What demanded that I needed to see people I considered good people, act like damn fools, and children let loose for recess without a day of parenting. So if you have a problem with what I've said... post it, call me, you know my number, hell you might even know where I live, just be ready to explain yourself and at what point durring when you were raised that your mom or dad said treating anyone like that was right and just, much less a friend, even more so a woman. Pissed doesn't describe my feelings right now... not by a long shot. It took every last ounce of patience to not go full out nigger on someones ass tonight. And to plant a size 15 boot in someones ass. Never expect me to hang out like that again.