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Sometimes I sabatoge myself. Im good at that. But then again I shouldn't feel guilty for expressing myself. Ash and I had another conversation about our relationship. He's not leaving but it doesn't feel like its going anywhere. Idk maybe Im just scared still because of Micah and that I feel like Ash will be Micah and I always feel like he's getting ready to leave. I don't know why I can't move on. I need to meditate on all if this then. I need to make myself better. For the sake of the relationship. Garrr what I week. I need it to be over.