it ought to be second nature
NP: Rush - Second Nature
What am I doing here?
I don't always understand myself.
The last few weeks, I've been missing this place. I don't really know why, because it hardly represents the best part of my life, the time I spent here. In fact it was much of the worst of it, thus far. So why do I feel drawn back? Don't know, really. I haven't been writing much, or drawing much, or doing much of anything to express myself lately. Maybe that's it. The pressure in my head is building up and I need to blast off steam. I dunno. Or maybe I just yearn for familiar things when I feel off-balanced, regardless of the positive or negative quality of the familiarity.
I wish I could explain to people that my own personal problems, issues, quirks, and brokennesses have nothing at all to do with them. I've lost friends over this. I don't know how to explain even if I try. I'm just a terrible friend I guess. I'm trying to make a point of not becoming friends with anyone anymore, just being polite and friendly but distant, so I don't hurt anyone like that anymore.
I'm lonely, but I suppose I'll just have to get used to that.
I miss Mitch. He's off working at Suzie's. Maybe when he comes home this feeling will go away.
Speak of the Devil...
-JLR
NP: The Doors - Wild Child
What am I doing here?
I don't always understand myself.
The last few weeks, I've been missing this place. I don't really know why, because it hardly represents the best part of my life, the time I spent here. In fact it was much of the worst of it, thus far. So why do I feel drawn back? Don't know, really. I haven't been writing much, or drawing much, or doing much of anything to express myself lately. Maybe that's it. The pressure in my head is building up and I need to blast off steam. I dunno. Or maybe I just yearn for familiar things when I feel off-balanced, regardless of the positive or negative quality of the familiarity.
I wish I could explain to people that my own personal problems, issues, quirks, and brokennesses have nothing at all to do with them. I've lost friends over this. I don't know how to explain even if I try. I'm just a terrible friend I guess. I'm trying to make a point of not becoming friends with anyone anymore, just being polite and friendly but distant, so I don't hurt anyone like that anymore.
I'm lonely, but I suppose I'll just have to get used to that.
I miss Mitch. He's off working at Suzie's. Maybe when he comes home this feeling will go away.
Speak of the Devil...
-JLR
NP: The Doors - Wild Child