What a lovely Friday!
It's kind of weird to be sitting here in my apartment, in beautiful late autumn upstate NY with the windows open, a 65° breeze wafting into my sitting room. I had thought I'd left this kind of lovely weather behind in Maryland when I left there 2 weeks ago. Wow... it's been a busy 2 weeks since then, but in a way, a very lax 2 weeks. I've unpacked (mostly), signed on with a new project (Dickens festival in), and am currently filling out applications for jobs that will, I hope, keep the heat on through the winter.
I sat down to this blog with the original intention of summarizing and discussing my time in Maryland, and all that took place...but I can't see that as terribly interesting except to myself and those already in the "know," as it were. Best I can say is that my love life is as settled as I've seen it in an age of man, and that missmiyani, C, and s are all getting along famously...:-)
I've reexamined my wants and desires, taken a long, hard look at the serial monogamy that has made up my personal life thus far, and have discovered some new feelings. I can forget bisexuality, as it's become apparent (even without the assistance of missmiyani) that neither gender, nor appearance matter to what love means to me. Pansexuality appears to be the term in vogue at the moment, so I'll stick to that, for now. Along with reexamining self for gender preferences, I've seen my ideas on relationships calm and coalesce...endless looking for "The One," being surprised when others have trouble with monogamy or "cheating," feeling left out by people who appear happy together, the nagging voice of my upbringing (and my mum) about "finding a nice girl and settling down" have left me feeling...cold, lost, unhappy. So, after much introspection, and some long conversations with my other half, I've entered into a polyamorous relationship (love to missmiyani, et al.) and feel more peaceful about my heart and how it's being looked after than I ever have.
I have found my shay'kreth'ashké, and we shall never step away from our love.
So there, a lovely bit of serious and fun over the course of a pleasantly sunlit day...be well, all!
I sat down to this blog with the original intention of summarizing and discussing my time in Maryland, and all that took place...but I can't see that as terribly interesting except to myself and those already in the "know," as it were. Best I can say is that my love life is as settled as I've seen it in an age of man, and that missmiyani, C, and s are all getting along famously...:-)
I've reexamined my wants and desires, taken a long, hard look at the serial monogamy that has made up my personal life thus far, and have discovered some new feelings. I can forget bisexuality, as it's become apparent (even without the assistance of missmiyani) that neither gender, nor appearance matter to what love means to me. Pansexuality appears to be the term in vogue at the moment, so I'll stick to that, for now. Along with reexamining self for gender preferences, I've seen my ideas on relationships calm and coalesce...endless looking for "The One," being surprised when others have trouble with monogamy or "cheating," feeling left out by people who appear happy together, the nagging voice of my upbringing (and my mum) about "finding a nice girl and settling down" have left me feeling...cold, lost, unhappy. So, after much introspection, and some long conversations with my other half, I've entered into a polyamorous relationship (love to missmiyani, et al.) and feel more peaceful about my heart and how it's being looked after than I ever have.
I have found my shay'kreth'ashké, and we shall never step away from our love.
So there, a lovely bit of serious and fun over the course of a pleasantly sunlit day...be well, all!