What does it all mean?
Last weekend was one of those times where when someone asks me what I did, I shrug my shoulders, let out a throaty laugh, and smile. MMmmm.
I took a two hour nap today and had some of the weirdest dreams I've had in a while. The first one consisted of me feeling a spider crawling near my eye, then brushing it off only to fling onto the corner of the wall right by my head. I lifted my head to see multiple little spiders crawling up the corner, I got scared, and tried to scoot myself further away from the spiders. But I couldn't move. It was like those stories you hear about surgery patients who are awake for the surgery, aware, feeling everything, but unable to move or cry out. I was telling my body to move, wanting to make any sort of noise to know I was functioning, but it took every ounce of will power I had just to twitch my arm a little. I woke up.
The second one was really random, and I don't remember all of it. I do remember that I was at someone's house, hanging out with these guys that I figured out to be these people who were committing these gruesome (reallllly gruesome) murders. I think they told me it was them (I don't know why), because I remember one of the guys explaining to me that victims are so stunned that they don't feel all the things they do to them. I wasn't scared, because I was thinking if these guys are telling me this, they're not going to kill me, they only kill people they don't know. They seemed really calm talking about all these really disgusting things. I knew their family as well, I remember talking to them, really nice people. Then for some reason I was ducking behind something (a low table, i think) thinking these thoughts, then I looked under the table...nothing underneath...nothing underneath...then BLAM there was the nice guy, looking all crazed and staring at me with these big eyes and a hungry smile. He leapt out at me and grabbed me and tried to bite my neck but I resisted. And I realized, oh my god, they're all vampires. And i was trying to scream but i couldn't. I couldn't, and then told myself you have to, it's not your time to die, you don't die like this. And I screamed, and he stopped and ran off. And the family apologized to me, saying he was an odd one because he was so gruesome about everything, a psycho. None of them tried to attack me. But I remember panicking and trying to run away. The rest of the dream is really hazy, but it went on and what I remember doesn't piece together as well as the first part of the dream.
So, yeah. I woke up feeling disoriented. All of it felt really real. In fact, I think I dreamt that I woke up from that first dream and talked to someone about it.
In other news, Stillwater was under a tornado warning all last night. It's been about ten years since I've been in one of those. People here were so excited to see the storm they were sitting on roofs and cheering every time it thundered.
Here's to fancy restaurants.
I took a two hour nap today and had some of the weirdest dreams I've had in a while. The first one consisted of me feeling a spider crawling near my eye, then brushing it off only to fling onto the corner of the wall right by my head. I lifted my head to see multiple little spiders crawling up the corner, I got scared, and tried to scoot myself further away from the spiders. But I couldn't move. It was like those stories you hear about surgery patients who are awake for the surgery, aware, feeling everything, but unable to move or cry out. I was telling my body to move, wanting to make any sort of noise to know I was functioning, but it took every ounce of will power I had just to twitch my arm a little. I woke up.
The second one was really random, and I don't remember all of it. I do remember that I was at someone's house, hanging out with these guys that I figured out to be these people who were committing these gruesome (reallllly gruesome) murders. I think they told me it was them (I don't know why), because I remember one of the guys explaining to me that victims are so stunned that they don't feel all the things they do to them. I wasn't scared, because I was thinking if these guys are telling me this, they're not going to kill me, they only kill people they don't know. They seemed really calm talking about all these really disgusting things. I knew their family as well, I remember talking to them, really nice people. Then for some reason I was ducking behind something (a low table, i think) thinking these thoughts, then I looked under the table...nothing underneath...nothing underneath...then BLAM there was the nice guy, looking all crazed and staring at me with these big eyes and a hungry smile. He leapt out at me and grabbed me and tried to bite my neck but I resisted. And I realized, oh my god, they're all vampires. And i was trying to scream but i couldn't. I couldn't, and then told myself you have to, it's not your time to die, you don't die like this. And I screamed, and he stopped and ran off. And the family apologized to me, saying he was an odd one because he was so gruesome about everything, a psycho. None of them tried to attack me. But I remember panicking and trying to run away. The rest of the dream is really hazy, but it went on and what I remember doesn't piece together as well as the first part of the dream.
So, yeah. I woke up feeling disoriented. All of it felt really real. In fact, I think I dreamt that I woke up from that first dream and talked to someone about it.
In other news, Stillwater was under a tornado warning all last night. It's been about ten years since I've been in one of those. People here were so excited to see the storm they were sitting on roofs and cheering every time it thundered.
Here's to fancy restaurants.