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life has a way of testing you like theres no tommorow....phew...
its crazy....im bein a soldier tho you know...keepin the head up n wat not
I wanna write alot so sit back... ;)
first of all...shit is alil blah with um..my godfathers sister. Shes in the hospital n not doin all that great. you know i think about her situation and how life is so fragile. I wish it was more sturdy...more guaranteed. Im tellin you this girls life was starting to evolve. She had waited a long time for marriage so she finally got married to her doctor man. She was a doctor herself...and a college professor....she JUST had a baby girl....=\ ::sigh:: couple weeks ago...i think maybe a month...she gets an air bubble in her brain and is in critical condition about to check out.... =( i really loved that girl...she is such a great person and even tho i didnt get to see her alot...everytime shed come visit, she treated me with such love...like a sis....such a special person..n now its like..the most insignificant thing is keeping her from everything she finally gained. ::sigh:: im prayin to god everyday now that she keeps her here on earth. The planet needs people like her. ::sigh:: aanywho....
i watched um....sweet november couple days ago n cried like alil bitch...but yes...i admit it...everytime i see the stupid movie i cry...its not cuz i want to...it just..comes out ::shrug:: in the end...that movie teaches you alot....aside from making me ball my eyes out...He loved her so much, he was willing to let her go....obviously after several times she told him to do so...but regardless....he did let go...and all he'll have is the memory of that month...and i understood what she meant about....people remembering her the way she was...embracing life...not...trying to live it...jus cuz she was sick....ahh...::shrug:: u know...just some thoughts....
i also thught about....us as um...humans..i guess you could say....we have a big tendency to....give meaning and significance to ...certain things in our lives...that remind us of a person, place, thing, time...w.e. in a way, its kinda like..were torturing ourselves w.o. really meaning to. Thiink back to when you were or think of your situation now, that youre with someone...u know that song? that reminds you of the time you were alone that night? or....that movie that you saw 2gether....stuff like that...we always attach some kind of significance...it wasnt just a song..it was a song you heard together and now you cant hear it bcuz it reminds you of that certain someone...or you cant see that movie again bcuz...every second you watch it makes you think of every second...that night....that you were with them....its a function of the brain the whole thing.....i know its called something specific but i forgot....i know i learned it in a class ::shrug:: but anywho....us humans....we are...some interesting people let me tell you..lol....
k so im done..phew! lol
Schedule 4 today....// Weekend
Friday:: ::crosses fingers:: get my check.....football state finals with kristii....maybe frogs for vickys thing...0o0or el pie...
Sat:: Look at apartments n such w. the pops....go to dealership n look at carssssss aaaaaaaand =O HIN!!! w. marii and everyone n their mother..
Sun:: NO idea ::shrug::
cheffo <3
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