Bad news... worse news...
start with the bad...
I found out today from my mother that the doctor's office called with the results of my allergy test...
Extreme reaction: Peanuts
High sensitivity: Almonds
Slight sensitivity: White rice, Potatoes, Tomatoes
no longer allergies (compared to previous test at age 12 ish): Tree nuts (such as Walnuts), raw egg...
now let's go on to the worse...
I feel like my world is crumbling around me...
I feel this immense feeling of unimportance, as if I am going to die tomorrow, and that my life will have had no meaning...
I think about Sebastian, I think about what if I end up the same way... what if I just die... I DON'T WANT TO DIE!
I know no one wants to... but... I just...
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...
I need someone to be here for me... I feel so alone...
I don't want to die alone...
I found out today from my mother that the doctor's office called with the results of my allergy test...
Extreme reaction: Peanuts
High sensitivity: Almonds
Slight sensitivity: White rice, Potatoes, Tomatoes
no longer allergies (compared to previous test at age 12 ish): Tree nuts (such as Walnuts), raw egg...
now let's go on to the worse...
I feel like my world is crumbling around me...
I feel this immense feeling of unimportance, as if I am going to die tomorrow, and that my life will have had no meaning...
I think about Sebastian, I think about what if I end up the same way... what if I just die... I DON'T WANT TO DIE!
I know no one wants to... but... I just...
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...
I need someone to be here for me... I feel so alone...
I don't want to die alone...